criminalminds x reader

chapter 9

Tw sh, drowning

When we landed I asked hotch I've I could go freshen up at the hotel first, before I would come to set up and the police station.

So I took a taxi on my own and drove to the hotel. I received all the keys and just choose a random one for my own.
It's 444. I liked the number.

I ran up to my room and took my sh kit out of my to go bag.

Time for some slice and dice

I took of my clothes and left only my underwear. I sat down on the cold bathroom floor. And started cutting in my legs. The first one wasn't so deep, little red dots form in cut. I go over ot again and again until I feel the high.

More

I make 1 line after another. And then pack up quickly.

I cant be gone for too long

I change in different clothes, just a cargo pants and a turtle neck. And make my way out to the police department.

"Sorry I'm late hotch" I say as I arrived.
" it's fine, I trust you and prentiss will remain professional throughout the case?"

"Yes sir. Ow and eem the receptionists at the hotel gave me all the keys already. Al the room are the same I checked. So just pick out whatever number you want"

Hotch picked out a random key.

"Spencer is setting up already you can help him build the profile. The rest of the team will be back soon"

Great then I can get yelled even more by lieutenant prentiss

"You already did alot " I say to Spencer.
As I see the board filled with information.

We both started to get more information on the victims, the missing kids and we started to map put the abduction and murders and disposalsites.

The rest of the team came in. And got more information on the crime scene and the cause of death.
Our profile was already pretty strong, but hotch told us to wait till tomorrow to deliver it. Just to make sure we didn't miss something, wich we usually do until Spencer has a big realisation.

Hotch always rents 2 svu's so we can get around willen working on the case. We splits up in the 2 cars and drove to the hotel. Had dinner and headed to the room.

I was changing into my pyjamas when somebody knocks on the door.
I thought it was Spencer, we sometimes watch a movie before going to sleep.
I open the door but it wasn't Spencer.

"O lieutenant prentiss "

Shit that wasn't ment to be out loud

"Is that what you call me now?" Emily said as she just walks in

Great come in, I was totally not just changing

"What do you want em?" I say slightly annoyed.
"We need to discuss about what happend on the yet"

" o I think we already discussed alot "
Emily went to sit down on my bed .

" I didn't mean to go all 'lieutenant' on you" I cant help it  but to laugh a bit at the way she said that

"I'm just really worried about you y/n"

"I appreciate that em I really do, but I don't appreciate being yelled at. Especially infront of the whole team"

"I know im sorry, I just really want you to open up and tell me what's going on"

"I don't think I can talk about em"

She can't know. But I needed to tell someone I can't take it anymore

"You don't have to tell me everything. What just happend on the jet? With the panick attack?"

I let out a big sigh

"I cant "

But I need to

But i cant

"Fine but pls know im here for you oke."
Emily started walking. But came back to hug me.

Once again Ouch

I flinched but she couldnt see this time

" thanks for the hug" I say.
as she start to walk away I stop her.
"Wait em. Did you really have to tell my sister what happend on the jet?"

She laughs " sorry ill tell penelope to back off.

2 days later ( I'm skipping a bit over the cases)
We found the unsub, the rest of the team is helping a big group of kids the ubsub had in his basement some for years. Derek Tara and I are chasing the unsub.

"Derek stop the car he's heading for the lake!" Tara yells

" oo he's not getting away with this " I say as I jump out of the car

"Hotch we need back up. He's trying to escape over the lake" Derek called up hotch
"Me and rossi will drive down to the otherside"

I kept sprinting down the unsub

I'm not loosing him!

He jumped in a boat and tried to get it started . This gave me time to ketch up.
He got his boat started but I wasn't gonna give up.
"Y/n slow down!!"
I kept running and running I made a jump and landed in the boat.

The boat kept driving straight forward while the unsub and I are fighting.

" just go to sleep already!!" I yelled as I kept hitting his face over and over again. The boat was far away from the  
Deck. The unsub got control for a second and managed to hit me in to head with a walky talky connected to the boat.

I fell in the water. My body felt like death weight. I dont have the energy to swim up. The little air that I still had left in my longs leave my body.
My eyelids feel heavy as I'm just in-between floating and drowning.

My eyes stair ahead as I can barely keep them open. I see something in the distance. I move my arm and try to reach for it.

When the figure comes closer, I reconise it.
"Eva" I tried to from the words but my lungs just fill up with water.
I can feel my body getting heavier.

"It's not your time yet" eva said to me.
I tried to move closer but I cant. All of a sudden I feel lighter.

Peace

I'm all alone with Eva. All I ever wanted was her ( get it bc the song ye oke)

All i ever wanted was to be with her again.

The water takes my pain away. I'm free now...I close my eyes

I'm free