Tw sh
Y/n's pov:
I woke up facing emily. Our noses were so close to eachother when I noticed she was holding my hand.
"Em" I whisper
She doesn't respond.
So I slowly pull my hand away.
I take my clothes and back pack and jump im the shower.
I needed to cut again.
I just need to and I dont want to fight it. I don't even want to try. I just drag the blade through my skin and feel the sweet relief. I decided to keep it on my thighs so nobody would find out.
When I get out the shower. I put comfortable clothes for the jet ride.
Emily was already awake.
"Why do you look at me like that"
I say putting my headphones around my neck when I walked out the batroom.
"I gave you some space yesterday bc I thought you needed it but now I want a real answer. Are you oke...?"
She looked really worried
But she also looked so hot.
O fuck it
"What do you think" I say when walking up the her and kissing her lips.
I put my hand in her neck with my thumbs on her face.
She grabs my waist and I push her to the wall.
When she all of a sudden pushes me away.
"Y/n stop"
I take my hand of of her. And awkwardly stans there.
"I'm sorry I like jj. And well you need to focus on your mental health "
"Right right sorry"
I am so fucking stupid Ahhhhhh
I start packing in my stuff ad if nothing happend.
I was fast then em so I immediately run out of the room. And go to Spencer's room
"Hey your fast " Spencer said to me
I dropped my bags on the ground on the edge of tears.
"Y/n what's wrong?"
"I am so fucking stupid" I start pacing around his room.
"I kissed emily. And she declined me by saying she's in love with jj"
I was crying in a slight panic.
God now I wanne cut even more and I just did 2 seconds ago.
"Shh oke calm down" Spencer hugged me and we stood there for a second.
"You are amazing en emily is making a big mistake, oke. And soon she will realise her mistake"
I sit down on spenc bed.
"I'm not even over Eva's dea yet. But god... she's just so gorgeous "
Spencer shuckled a little making me laugh to in-between my cries.
He came to sit down next to me.
"Do you really like her?" He asked.
"I think so. I've always found her attractive. But I never wanted to kiss her this badly."
Spencer hugged me again.
And then let me calm down a sec while be was packing in.
Before leaving the room he gave me my antidepressants and I took my anxiety meds.
I immediately but on my headphones and we walk to the cars.
When we got on the plane. I sat alone.
I wanted to sleep a little more but I couldn't. I kept think about what happend. I kept looking at emily.
And how she looked at jj.
God I wish I was jj. I want her long blond her. I want to have her smile, her laugh. And those eyes. The ones emily keeps looking into.
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Fanfiction⚠️tw⚠️ mental health issue's such as sh, depression, Ed and suicide... y/n garcia penelope's sister has been with the bau for 1 year. she's a very private person but now, her mental health caves in after another lose in her life. everyone will see h...
