criminalminds x reader

chapter 51

Tw razors?

It was the next morning.

Emily made breakfast.
"Goodmorning babe did you sleep well?" Emily asked as I walked into the kitchen.
"Ye fine" I say as I yawn.
"I wanted to ask were your razors are" I stop in the middle of the room and turn to her
"I'm not throwing them away"
She looked at me confused.
"Y/n I don't want you to hurt yourself "
She said as she puts a plate filled with eggs infront of me.
"I don't want that either. I hid them away but I'm not throwing them out. They are out of sight so I'm not triggered. But I still have them just in case"
She puts her fork down and looks at her hands then back up at me.
"Just in case? In case for what?" She sounded a bit angry.
"Look em, having them gives me some sort of comfort. I know it sounds insane. But jts the same with death. Knowing death exists comforts me but that doesn't mean I still want to kill myself. I might not be 'cured' but I'm fighting to get my life back okay?"

I walk to the coffee machine and poor a cup. I take out the milk and caramel.
Emily wrapped her arms around my waist.
"Okay I'm sorry. But I want you to tell me when you get urges again or when your triggered. Maybe we could use a code word"
I turn around in her arms. Our faces are almost touching.
"So we have a code word for my sh urges but we don't have a safe word for In bed yet"
Both me and Emily laughed

"What about waffle?"
She said
"Hahah waffle?" I say laughing.
"Yes...when you want to cut you just say 'hey em I want a waffle '"

"Omg I love you so much"
My face changed as I realised I say those 3 words 'I love you'.
Technically I already said it in Spanish to my brother. But this...
"I'm sorry you don't have to say it back" I turn around again and make my coffee.

I made my coffee and turned around to gey seated in the sofa.
But emily stopped me and kissed my lips."I love you too" I was shocked. We've only been dating for about 2 weeks? Maybe less.

I smile at her and she starts to undress me.
"Our safeword is 'pickle'" she said as she puts me ontop of the kitchen counter. I laughed at the word
I unbuttoned her shirt as she kissed my neck. She picked me up
"Omg em hahah" I scream In joy.
She moved me on the bed and yk what happends next.

In the middle of it penelope called.
I picked up as emily continued to touch my body and kiss my neck and chest.
"*giggles* hey pen. Omg heheh em shh stop it" I wisperd the last part.
I was holding myself in.
"Y/n your late for work your lucky hotch is out today"

"*ooww aaa*" I tried so hard to hold it in.
"Mhh we will be in soon"
I thought I ended the phone call so me and emily continued.
"Okay eeew byye" I hear and noticed the phone call only them just ended.
I look back at emily and we both laugh.

This time I was more comfortable I let emily see my body completely.
We both get dressed again.
"This time was even better" emily said.
"You did amazing and your body is like a freaking goddess" she said kissing me forehead.
We both got dressed to get to work

"Here I got your something " I throw a helmet at em and she catched it.
"Now we can ride my bike together "
Emily got exited and we jumped on my motorcycle. I put in my helmet and so does em.
"You look so hot" I say to her as she sits down behind me.
She wraps her arms around my waist and we drive off.
"Wait the team can't see us"
I sigh and turned around again.
She steps off.
"I'm sorry but 2 agents aren't allowed to date" she says as she takes of her helmet.

"It's okay I'll see you at work. I love you" I say with a big smile and she returns it.
I drive off and I arrived earlier.

I arrived and penelope pulled me into her office.

"Okay okay I'm know I sneak way to much in people's sex lives but I did not want to hear my sister moan out Emily's name"
I look embarrassed.
"I am so sorry "
"It's good I pulled you in bc you have a hickey" she puts concealer and foundation over my neck.
"We said I love you" I say with a smile.
Penelope's mouth fell open and she jumped up and down and I joined her.
"Ooo you too lovebirds"

I walk out to the team.
"Here is sleepyhead number 1" Rossi said. As I walk in.
"I'm sorry im late guys" I put down ny stuff at the desk and hear tara say ( who was back from assignment)
"There is sleepyhead number 2"
I turn around and see emily walk in with a smile.

"Omg you have so many hickeys" jj said

Oooo

It made me smile but I hid it.
"Things with the new lover must be going great. I don't think she slept much" Rossi said.

"Prentiss got a lover?" Luke asked.
I eyed penelope who's trying so hard to hold it in. Spencer just gave me a grin.

"Can you all stop pls" emily said as she sat down at her desk. I couldn't look at her or i would give it away.

"Looks like the 2 garcia's know something" Tara said.
Emily her eyes widened.

I jump up and put my hand over Penelope's mouth. This is the longest secret she ever held and I don't want her to out emily.

"We know nothing" I held me hand stead on p's mouth and she nodded.

"Then why are you silencing your sister?" Luke asked.
"Both garcia's love knowing everything about everyone. They are great to convide In. Only difference is y/n can keep a secret."
Jj explained to luke.

"The longest penelope held a secret was 47 minutes " Spencer said.
Now it's up to about a week or something.

"Spill" Tara said.
"Nope we won't say anything " I carefully remove my hand from penelope mouth. She makes the hand moved that her lips are sealed.

Everyone turns to emily.
"Come on em"
She sighed.

"está bien, puedes decirles. si estas listo" I say to her.
Translation:
It's okay, you can tell them. If your ready.

Luke clears his throat.
"I can speak Spanish too"
Dammit this is the second time.
"How do you know Spanish with your sister doesn't?"

"She's my half sister, we don't share the same bio dad. He was Spanish so I'm half Latina. I know I dont look it.
I learned Spanish in high-school so I could be closer to him after he died" I quickly explained.

But then the attention went back to emily.
She turned around and said
"I'm dating a woman"
Everyone was in shock.
"Does that mean you're-" jj wanted to ask.
"Idk all I know is that I love her" I look away and smile.
"Tell us about her" Tara asked
Emily smiles.
"She's beautiful but she's insecure. She also speaks Spanish. She's smart and kind. When she smiles the whole world's smiles. I've never loved someone this openly and ive never worried about someone so much. She's an amazing singer. She plays guitar. Her voice calms me. She is so good at her job. And I'm proud of her every single day. That she survived what she did" I look down and smile.

I noticed Spencer was smiling too.
"Wait that sounds a whole lot like-" jj put the pieces together. She looks at me and I can't hold in my smile.

I get up and say
" I love you too" as I kiss her lips
The room goes 'awww'

"It was soooooo juicy but I couldn't tell anyone " Penelope said.
"You have a new record tho. She knew before Spencer did"
I say as get back behind my desk.
The whole team laughs
"Actually...I called up derek"
"Ofc you did"

"Okay but nobody can tell hotch" emily said.
"Or the section chief"
I added

I forgot to kill of Strauss and replace her with cruz so let's just say Strauss left 🙃 and now cruz is the section chief