Tw sh
I got home and emily wasn't there yet.
I got dressed in a lounge set to be more comfortable. I had alot of bad thoughts but I tried to fight them so I took my guitar and started playing.
(Thoses eyes from new west)
When we're out in a crowd laughing loud
And nobody knows why
When we're lost at a club, getting drunk
And you give me that smile
Going home in the back of a car
And your hand touches mine
(Emily walked in and walked closer to my the bedroom)
When we're done making love
And you look up and give me those eyes
I look up and smiled to her.
She came to sit next to me and layed her head on my shoulder
'Cause all of the small things that you do
Are what remind me why I fell for you
And when we're apart, and I'm missing you
I close my eyes and all I see is you
And the small things you do
When you call me at night while you're out
Getting high with your friends (high with your friends)
Every "hi", every "bye", every "I love you" you've ever said
(You've ever said)
'Cause all of the small things that you do
Are what remind me why I fell for you
And when we're apart, and I'm missing you
I close my eyes and all I see is you
And the small things you do
When we're done making love
And you look up and give me those eyes
'Cause all of the small things that you do
Are what remind me why I fell for you
And when we're apart, and I'm missing you
I close my eyes and all I see is you
And all I see is you and the small things you do
All the small things you do
I place my hand on the guitar strings.
"Are you okay?"
She lifts her head up and kiss my lips.
"Yes thank you for the song. I needed it" I smile at her.
"I needed it too" I wisperd.
I put away the guitar and emily goes to change in the bathroom.
I get some fruit out of the fridge and make em a bowl.
She stayed out long so I nocked on the door. And opend it. She was standing infront if the mirror.
"What's wrong?" She walks out and takes the fruit bowl.
"I'm thinking about something I want to talk to you about but idk how or when " she said as she sat down on the bed.
"Is that what's been on your mind the past 2 days?" I asked her and she nodded.
"Well I've noticed you've been upset or worried about something so if its important it's better to talk about it now. So you don't walk around with it. And on the 'how' just try by saying what your upset about and explain it. Do you have me to listen? To comfort you or have an open conversation about it?" I wanted to make sure I was doing it right. This was my turn to take care of emily.
"Open conversation" she answered
She eats a few of her fruits and asked me if I wanted a few but I declined.
I went to get us 2 water bottles and emily moved to the couch.
I sat the water bottle down and take a blanket. I sit down next to her and out both my legs on the couch. And put the blanket over both our lower bodies.
I look at her suggesting I'm ready when she is.
She puts the fruit bowl down in-between us and takes a sip if water.
"Do you feel ready?" I asked making sure she isn't forcing herself to talk about something she wasn't ready for.
"I'm worried about you" was the first thing that came out of her mouth.
Wow this conversation took a different direction.
I was shocked I thought em was going to talk about her but its about me?
I still listed eventho i don't want to talk about myself.
"
When you were changing I saw bandages on your leg"
Shit
I looked away, emily placed her hand on my foot.
"Why are there bandages on your thighs y/n" tears form in my eyes.
And I awkwardly laugh.
"I thought I was going to comfort you"
I repeat the laugh as I wipe away my tears.
"Y/n?" Emily repeated.
"Sergio got ocd?" I say laughing awkwardly again.
Emily looked down.
"I'm being serious" she was trying to hid her emotions.
I turn around now facing the TV.
And look down at my hands as I start playing with them.
"I relapsed " I say in a soft voice.
"When penelope dropped of a bag of clothes...my self harm kit was in it. I tried to ignore it. I called my therapist. We went on a walk...but then." I cry out and emily moves closer to me. She pulled my head on her shoulder and I wrap my arms around her.
"I saw jj on tv. And I saw how you were looking at her..." I lift my head to face emily.
"And then you asked me to get groceries...ow y/n" she pulled me back in and played with my hair.
"You are gorgeous you have nothing to worry about " she rubbed my back and helped me calm down.
"I hate myself so much. But I don't want too" I let my tears fall.
"I'm going to convince you everything just how amazing you are. I wish you could see yourself like I see you"
"Can I look at the cuts?"
I shook my head no.
"Y/n babe I need to take care of them. I get your insecure but I cant let then get infected" I agreed. I cant say no to her face.
We walked into the bathroom and I took of my pants. Emily took of the bandages and saw the cuts plus my scars.
"Y/n look at me" I look down at emily I tears.
"Don't be ashamed. I don't think any different of you okay" she tends my cuts and I wince in pain.
"I know im sorry"
But I kinda liked the pain. It gave relief.
She wrapped my legs back up and kissed my forehead.
"Let's sleep, it was a long day" I pull my pants back up.
"I'm glad you told me the truth" she smiled at me.
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