⚠️tw⚠️ mental health issue's such as sh, depression, Ed and suicide...
y/n garcia penelope's sister has been with the bau for 1 year. she's a very private person but now, her mental health caves in after another lose in her life.
everyone will see h...
This is just were I left it of at the previous chapter.
The date was set. Everyone was leaving the precinct to go to the hotel and then dinner. I stayed in from my therapy session.
I flipp open my laptop and put on the camera.
"Hey y/n, how was your first 2 days back at the job" I felt like fucking crying. "Heavy..." "Yesterday I had a really hard day with food, so I called my sister and face timed while eating. That helped a bit. I cried in the cover over eva. Emily was statinf at my arms. Now today. I almost had an anxiety attack bc I had to appear on fuckinf national television. It went oke. But i cried alone in a room bc this case reminds me of my friend Jason and and. I'm not done. Tomorrow I'm forced to go in the field eventho I don't feel ready but I also don't want to let people die. And I need to convince the unsub not to kill someone bc he only wants to talk to me." I let everything out in one breath
Through out our session we talked more in detail about everything that happend and how it made me feel and that bullshit. And then some tools for if I every have an anxiety attack again.
When I wrapped up the session I went to the hotel.
"Hey how was therapy " em asked. "Heavy..just like today and just like tomorrow will be" I sigh deeply. And fall onto the bed.
Em laughed a little on how I just let myself fall.
"You want to talk about it?" "I think I already talked about it enough" I say with an awkward laugh. "Y/n I wanted to apologise for yesterday " I turn around and sit up from the bed. "I didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable in anyway I am so sorry" She sounded genuine so I couldn't hold a grudge.
"It's fine. Its in the past already. Besides I have other shit in my head now" I put my hand on my hand and smiled at em a little.
"Thanks. Now are you eating here or coming with us" She asked nicely.
"I'm coming " I took my bag and we went to the restaurant in the hotel to eat.
We ate dinner and then everyone went back to their rooms.
"Hey y/n, wanne do movie night again " Spencer asked. "Sorry Spencer I'm really tired" He once again kissed me on the forehead and wished me goodnight.
Me and em went to our room, and I changed into my pj's. So did emily.
Her pj were thses cute blue shorts with red hearts on it and then a red shirt.
She looks so good in red I cant- "Why are you looking at me like that" Emily said with her cheeky little smile.
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Bc your looking like that
"Eem no reason sorry " I crawl back into my own bed. "Em?" "Yea?" "Could we put the beds together again pls" she smiled at me and so she did.
She crawled next to me. We both lay on our sided facing eachother. "You oke?" She grabbed my hand and held it.
"No...I feel like crying and I actually really don't want to face the unsub tomorrow " "Why won't you let yourself cry" Emily used her other hand to rub my shoulder.
" I don't want to. And eem maybe I'm a little scared *scoff * I'm scared im going to get suck again. I'm stil fighting everyday to get up and face everything. So I'm scared that if I allow myself to rest a little and cry ot out. That I'll be stuck"
Emily confronted me and said she will always be here for me and that she will get me out of I ever get stuck again.
And on that note we went to sleep. At least I tried. Em stayed up a bit longer. And I tried to sleep, but I kept thinking about tomorrow.
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Tomorrow came faster than i thought. When I woke up, I felt Emily's arm on my waist. We were spooning
Omg y/n just keep it in your fucking pants
I didn't know what to do. But I kinda liked it. I wanted to wake her up but then her alarm went off.
She casually took her arm away as if nothing happend.
She rolled around and groind. I got up first and changed in the bathroom. I just wore a cargo pants and a black long sleeve shirt, with a jacket on top.
I walked out and saw that Emily wore the same cargo pants, but with a different top.
"Nice pants sister " I said jokingly. She turned around and looked at my pants noticing we wore the same one. The right corner of her mouth went up. "Guess we have good taste"
"Why do have to get up so early when the unsub wants to meet us at 2pm. Its 9 am rn" I say rolling my eyes. And putting on a necklace eva gave me for good luck.
"It gives us more time to prepare, and more time for breakfast and lunch" I once again roll my eyes at Emily.
"Don't roll your eyes at me!" She steps really close to me. She was sturn for a second but then a smile grew. I just stared at her mouth. At her soft red lips. She backed up and said "Let's go get breakfast "
Right food
We went downstairs to the hotel restaurant and sat down at a round table.
I orderd a bagel with avocado spread. I noticed Derek wanted to make a remark but then pulled back.
"Yk, you can make jokes Derek. You don't have to hold back just bc now you know my past. It's fine I joke about it all the time to myself "
"Let's hear a joke then" Rossi said.
"Most of them are in the moment kinda thing...but remember this case we were going and everytime i said something I got cut off....so my brain was like 'ha cut'. Its bad I know" Nobody laughed but emily. She scoffed into a laugh.
"Ye that was really bad" I laughed aswell.
"Oke I got a few more" I hear hotch say "o no" but I continued anyway.
"What does a monster can and I have in common?" I wait a second and em started laughing "A barcode?" "Omg yes!!!" We both laugh and everyone is kinda shocked.
"Oke maybe you should stop " jj said "Comon jj it's not that deep" I once again started laughing again. This time the team joined but with a little awkward laugh. Em gave me an high five.
The food arrived and take small bites. My head started to count the calories. Spencer noticed something was up. He gave me my antidepressants, and I took my anxiety meds aswell. I wanted to put on my headphones but I didn't want to be rude.
Time passed. We went to the police department, hotch told me how to handle the case. Then it was lunch.
