criminalminds x reader

chapter 28

Tw ed/ difficulties with food

We went to the hotel ans hotch was giving us all room keys.

"Y/n you need to share a room with someone. You can pick who"

Spencer suggested his room but he's been living with me for 2 weeks now. He deserves a break. So I decided to go with Emily.

"Let's go roomy"
Emily wrapped her arm around me and we went up to our room.
"Ha 69" I said looking at rhe room number
"You are such a kid" emilt opend the door and claimed the bed furthest away.
"That's bc im only 22" I said out laughing.

We both dropped our bag on our separate beds.

"So do you wanne go out to eat?"
She asked.
"I actually just wanted to order room service, and video call with penelope of that's oke. You can still go out the eat. I'm sure the team will come along"
Emily agreed and I order a burger with a salad on the side.
She took a shower and put on different clothes.

"Oke I'm gonna go"

I was sitting on the bed but my computer put waiting for the room service to arrive so i could call p.

"You oke?" She asked.
I look away from my screen and just loom at her but a blank face.
"Ye I'm fine"

Im not! I feel guilty for ordering that big fat burger. I could barely close my jeans.

"Your not gonna do anything right?"
Emily looked at me sympathetic.
I knew what she ment

But how does she know I want to

"No-I'm not"

When I relapsed 3 days ago, it was bc of my weight gain. My therapist knows already and said this side effect will only be temporary but j still feel bad about it. So that's why I'm going to call p. So she can help me through it when I start to feel quilty so I won't go out looking for a blade.

"But you want to?" Emily walked away from the door and sat next to me.
The question itself made me emotional.
"A little" I look down again.
"But that's why im going to stay on the phone with p. Bc I don't want to go through this mess again"

Emily hugged me.
"I'm proud of you. Call me of there is anything oke? I'll text you when I'm coming back"

She walked out and a few minutes after my food arrived.

I called up penelope before even looking at the burger.

"Right on time my food just arrived. What did you get?"

I take out my plate and put in on the floor next to my bed along with my computer

I direct the camera to my plate.

"I got this big fat burger who is litterly screaming 'eat me I'm very juicy with alot of calories' and then a salad. Ow and a Pepsi"

Penelope laughed at the impersonation I did with the burger.
"I orderd mac Donald"

"Try not to think about the calories. Instead try to think about all the good nutritions that are in it. You can start out with the salad if your more comfortable with that"
Penelope took a bite out of her burger first.

I did as she said, I started with the salad. A few bites. Then u thought it might be best to switch them on and off. So a few bites of salad then a big bite of the burger.

"O that is really juice" I say as the juice dripped down the corners of my mouth.

While eating we just talked about random things. Eventually I stopped thinking about the food and just ate it without thinking .