------- He loved the girl that can't love him.....And now he can't love the girl that loves him --------
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"Don't worry.." I say, getting up off the chair and walking around him on my way out, my scarf running through his fingers lightly until it s...
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I lean my shoulder against the wall, push my hands into my pockets, cross my feet at the ankle, and watch the snow fall on the other side of the window.
It's dark outside, and very cold, but the night lights and way the snow is falling so lightly and beautifully is creating such a magnificent view and serene feeling inside of me.
I raise my eyes up and look further up into the distance, way up above the skyline, and see a small light shimmering as it moves along.
A plane maybe.........or a lone star? unlikely.... perhaps a shooting star.
I find myself smiling at the thought of the last shooting star I saw.
I was on the balcony of my hotel room the night that Raquel and I met.
Back then, the weather was different, it was the end of summer, and the sky was clear, the air was cool but pleasant. Raquel had looked up at it with a glint in her eyes, talking about good luck and change......but then I probably burst her bubble with my skepticism about it.
I wonder if she did make a wish anyway......and what it is that she wished for?
I sigh.
Not one of my best moments with her.
There are so many moments in our relationship like that, that I look back on sometimes and wish that I had acted differently, like that night on our very first date at the cabin, everything was going great, until I ruined it with my big mouth......also, my reaction when she told me she was pregnant, not my best moment either. I know that if I had the chance to go back in time, I would do things differently, act differently.
I look up again and find that the shimmering light is gone.
Is it too late to make a wish?
What do I even wish for...Raquel already made all my dreams come true.
I look back on that night often and re-live the moment I found my biggest blessing in her.... how she showed up like an angel out of nowhere and rescued me from the life I had planned for myself, and instead, gave me one that was far beyond my greatest expectation.
She is my dream.......my wish.
The warmth I feel when I'm with her, our connection, understanding.........I have never felt that before and truly believe that I can never experience it with anyone else.
It's all so surreal, how everything changed when I least expected it.
What if this is all a dream.
......What if Raquel and I never met, we didn't have a baby, and my life is still the same way it was before she came along.
What if I'm lying in bed in El Paraiso and having a dream?
