Emotional Support Through Hard Times

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"Awwwe, is someone sleepy?"

"Noooo. I don't know what you're talking about." I paused. "...and I haven't for a while." I mumbled under my breath.

"Good one." He said in a monotone voice, trying not to smile.

"It in fact, was a good one, thank you very much."

He cracked, laughing. "Why don't you get some rest? You clearly need it. Your jokes are not up to par."

"It's almost like I want to stay up to talk to you or something. God forbid, am I right?"

He smiled, finally laying back in bed himself. His hair filled up the remainder of the screen that wasn't occupied by his face. His attempt to flatten it was mediocre at best, if anything, making it worse.

"Well, I'm flattered." He closed his eyes momentarily, taking a deep breath in and out through his nose.

"You okay?"

He opened his eyes. "Yeah, I'm okay. I'm finally on a break tomorrow. This is the longest tour I've done in so long. I'm fucking exhausted."

"Yeah, I'm used to hearing about 6, maybe 8 weeks of touring. I hope you're not over doing it, Dan."

"I'm alright." He hummed.

I looked at him, a mix of worry and skepticism on my face.

"I promise."

"Okay.." My tone must not have been convincing.

"I've still got a few good years left in me. Don't give up on me now!"

I chuckled. "Alright, alright... I just worry, ya know..? Not necessarily not being there with you, but I just worry something will happen, or I won't hear from you for a while and something will have happened, and I'll have no idea. No one will tell me, and I can't get to you. My mind tries to fuck with me, to give the worst possible scenarios, and it's been really hard. Not saying it hasn't been hard on you either." I could feel myself getting overwhelmed once again, tears welling up in my eyes. He went to say something, but I cut him off. "I know that everything's gonna be fine, it's just.. I wish.. I-I could hug you right now. I-I wish.. I could hug you and never let go."

"Ellie.." He said my name in a whisper. He was trying to think of what to say, his brow furrowing into deep lines, his puppy dog eyes full of concern. He stayed silent for a while, but I didn't interrupt again. I took time to calm myself down, wiping my eyes and sniffing as quietly as I could.

"Listen to me. First of all, if anything happened to me, you'd be one of the first to know, I give you my word. Other than my parents, obviously."

I nodded in understanding. "Okay.." I said quietly.

"Second of all, I wish I could hug you too. I wish.." He sighed, rubbing his face with his free hand. "I do wish you were here with me right now. Being alone most nights is hard. I know, I've got the guys, I'm not truly alone, but I miss you. I miss YOU, Ellie. When I get back.. when I get back, I'm showing up to your house with coffee, and snacks, and all the hugs in the world. Okay?"

I nodded. "Okay. I-I'm sorry."

"No, please don't apologize. I don't want you feeling bad for your emotions. It's okay to not be okay, but you know I'm here for you. Even if I'm the issue. You know you can get anything off your chest."

"Oh god, no. You're not an issue at all, I promise. I'm just glad to be able to vent."

"Anytime. You can tell me anything... so, is there anything else you wanna tell me?" The tone of his voice was hinting that he may know more than I want him to know, and I couldn't have that right now.

I smiled. "No, I'm okay now."

"I know it's hard, but it'll be over before you know it. I promise."

I laughed, not even having to say anything about the joke. "Can I ask you for a.. weird favor?"

"I'm intrigued."

"Will you.." I paused, feeling my face beginning to turn red.

"Oh? Is someone embarrassed? What is it? It must be something bad if YOU'RE embarrassed. I mean, we're not on that level but-"

"NO! No, no, no. Not that! Jesus, Dan." I laughed, him joining. "I was wondering if you'd sing me something. Listening to your music calmed me down so long ago, but I figured, you're here, I'm here, why not shoot my shot?"

"That's supposed to be a pickup line, but sure, I'll give you a little something."

I tried ignoring the tone of that sentence, the undertones obviously there. "Could you sing something from Nights on Broadway? It's one of my favorites. I can't put my finger on why, it just sounds so good."

"Of course. I'll have to keep it down a little because Brian's asleep in the hotel room next to me."

"That's okay, a calmer, quiet voice is what I need."

"Got it." He cleared his throat.

"Here we are
In a room full of strangers"

I immediately started smiling like an idiot.

"Standing in the dark
Where your eyes couldn't see me

Well, I had to follow you
Though you did not want me to
But that won't stop my lovin' you
I can't stay away"

I began to feel all my fears and dark thoughts melt away. Soon, his voice was replaced, slowly being drowned out by my own unconsciousness.

"Blamin' it all on the nights on Broadway
Singin' them love songs
Singin' them straight to the heart songs
Blamin' it all on the nights on Broadway
Singin' them sweet-"

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