ALWAYS BEEN THERE: A Lloyd Hansen Story

chapter fifteen

Croatia.

We're starting new. This is new territory.

Lloyd got me my own room, and we had been getting used to everything for about six months.

It was alright. I was just exhausted. We had so much to do, and lots of traveling.

Lloyd and I sat on his private jet. I was coloring in an adult coloring book. Lloyd sipped on his brandy as he watched me.

"That looks like the stupidest thing ever. Coloring for adults?"

I looked over at him. "You should try it." I said as I handed him a book. He sighed.

"This is childish."

"Yup." I said. "You know what else is childish? Your constant whining."

He still had his little sorta beard. His hair was still scruffy and shaggy on the top. The gel was still in.

He looked good though. I think he knew he looked good.

He started coloring. And twenty minutes later he was deep in his coloring book.

I smiled softly. He was doing so good.

I didn't say anything. I wasn't gonna ruin this moment of peace in all the chaos he brings with him.

We were heading back to Croatia tonight. We had a week in Belgium. I was tired. But I don't think moments like this could get any better.

In the whole picture, I was fairly happy with how this was all turning out. I trusted Lloyd, and slowly, I'm forgiving him.

After another thirty minutes, lloyd turned to me, showing me his picture. He was smiling a goofy little smile.

"Wow honey. That's beautiful." I said.

"This is therapeutic."

"Yeah you need a little therapy."

He sighed. I smiled and nudged him. He kissed my cheek.

I smiled and yawned.

"Hey if you're tired..."

"I'm not tired." I said. He rolled his eyes.

I shut my book and sighed, pulling the blanket up over me more.

"We're gonna be back in a little bit then you can go to bed."

I nodded and smiled.

•••

When we got back, we heard bustling. Lloyd and I went into the cctv room, seeing Suzanne and denny.

"Finally you're back. We need your help." Denny said. I groaned.

Suzanne gave me a small look. I didn't say anything, instead going to the kitchen to brew coffee.

"What's up her ass?" Denny asked.

"A sparkly blue butt plug denny! Wanna see it?" I said from the kitchen. Suzanne walked into the kitchen.

"You feeling okay?" She asked. I nodded.

"I've just been tired recently. I don't know." I said.

She made me stop scooping the coffee grounds. I looked her.

"What the fuck-"

"What kind of tired?"

"Just tired. I don't know."

She grabbed her purse and grabbed a pregnancy test. I gave her a look.

"I don't- I am not.." I whispered.

"Go take it." She said. I sighed. She dragged me to the bathroom and sat on the counter while I peed on the stick.

I gave her a look as I pulled my jeans up and washed my hands.

"If that comes back positive I am screwed. I can't have a child."

We stood there and waited for three minutes, then turned it over. Oh no. Oh fuck no.

"Shit.." Suzanne said.

"I'm calling an abortion clinic." I said as I walked out, looking for my phone. I walked into the cctv room, finding it. I frantically searched for a number.

Suzanne took the phone away.

"Just wait a second." She said.

"Hell no. I'm not waiting for shit."

"What's wrong?" Lloyd asked.

"None of your concern. It's fine. I'm just making a quick appointment."

"For what?" Lloyd asked.

"Camille stop. Just wait. He deserves to know."

"Shut up suzanne." I said.

"Know what?"

"Camille is pregnant and she's making a call to an abortion clinic but you deserve to know that cause you're the dad."

"You're what?"

"Suzanne!" I said. "Don't tell him that!"

"You're pregnant?!" Lloyd asked.

"No. I'm fine."

"Cam put the phone down." Lloyd said as he came over to me. He took the phone away.

"I don't know if I'm pregnant. It was s lousy test from Suzanne's purse."

"Well it explains your moodiness and tiredness."

"Okay asshole! God I didn't need your fucking opinion."

"Whatever." Lloyd said as he walked past me. I rolled my eyes.

"I'm not pregnant."

"Okay then set up an appointment to see if you really are or not."

I sighed.

"My life is already so fucked up as is. I can't have a kid running around."

"Maybe it's a false positive."

"Isn't that fairly rare?" I asked. She shrugged.

A kid couldn't live here. Lloyd and I couldn't be parents.

I sighed and went upstairs, going to my room. But Lloyd was standing in it.

"Lloyd I can't right now.."

"When did you forget birth control?" He asked.

"I don't know. Maybe I didn't at all. That happens."

He sighed. I wanted to be left alone so I could cry.

"Hey I'm just gonna sleep and head in tomorrow." I said.

"Cam-"

"I don't know what to do." I whispered.

"It beats me. But the choice is yours. It's your body if you're pregnant. Either you keep it or you don't."

I nodded. "We're not fit to be parents."

"Could be false positive."

I nodded. He sighed and kissed my head.

Ooooooo Lloyd and Camille are in troubleeee