ALWAYS BEEN THERE: A Lloyd Hansen Story

chapter thirty-three*

I finished brushing my teeth before getting into bed with Lloyd. He was sitting up, reading. I turned on the tv and snuggled up with the warm blankets.

Lloyd was staring at me. I looked up at him.

"What?" I asked. He moved on top of me, bookmarking his book. I stared at him.

"One last time." He whispered.

"You're not gonna die. Stop doing that."

He nodded. "You're right, but..please?"

I nodded. He pulled me into a gentle kiss. I set my hand on his cheek as he deepened it. I moved my legs around him. He moved to pull my sweatshirt over my head. I touched his chest before moving my hands down to help his shirt off his head. He moved to kiss down my neck while taking off my bra.

I moaned softly as he moved to my tits, giving each a little bite. His lips were so soft and gentle but god he knew how to toughen things up.

I moved to carefully take my pants off. He did the same, before moving his thumb to my clit. I whimpered.

He gave me a few seconds before lining up. I watched as he carefully pushed in. I moaned softly.

He got all of himself in before finding his place with his head buried in my neck. I held the back of his head while he started moving.

Bliss. Oh god I was gonna miss his warmth. The way his body complimented mine. The way he warmed me up.

He started slamming into me. I closed my eyes and let him take my body. I was all his.

I kissed his shoulder as he moved his hand to rub my clit again. I moaned softly.

Little slams and kisses, movement and friction led to us both extremely close.

"I'm cumming." I whispered as my legs shook. He made me cum so hard every single time.

I felt him follow, but he stayed buried in my neck. His pants were shaky.

"Lloyd honey."

He was off. He pulled out and sat up, tears in his eyes. I looked up at him.

"Hey.."

"No." He said as he got up and put on his boxers. He put the blankets over me. "Get some sleep."

"Come here." I whispered as I sat up. I grabbed his hand.

He was gonna burst into tears.

"It's okay." I whispered. I sat him down.

"I'm so sorry." He whispered as he tried to hold the tears in. I scooted over to pull him close. He was shaking from head to toe.

"Come here." I whispered. I pulled him into a hug.

He started crying as I did. I knew he wasn't okay with this. I knew he didn't wanna go.

But he knew he had to.

He sighed and rested his head on my shoulder. Tears were still falling.

He sat up to grab me my sweatshirt and sweatpants. I threw them on before looking at him. He was red in the face and tired.

"I'm really gonna miss you." He whispered. I smiled sadly.

"I'm gonna miss you too. But we're okay."

He nodded and looked up at the ceiling. I got on his lap to wipe his tears.

He sighed and wrapped his arms around my waist.

"I don't wanna go. I haven't been away this long since you were pregnant with max."

I sighed and kissed his cheek. He leaned into me. He is never this soft.

"You're okay. I promise you." I whispered. "Max and I will call you everyday."

He sighed and nodded. "Can we just...stay here?" He asked. I moved down and pulled him in to rest his head on my shoulder. He took a deep breath.

"I love you." He whispered.

"I love you too."

I watched as he slowly fell asleep. He was so hurt. But I needed him to be okay.

•••

Lloyd finished putting his suitcase in the trunk of his Uber. I sighed and held max. He was crying.

Lloyd came over and kissed his head. He wouldn't look at him.

"Hey. Max buddy..." Lloyd said. Max shook his head and moved to slowly look at him. He smiled.

"Hi. Hey..baby I love you." He whispered. Max cried softly. Lloyd hugged my side. Max moved to hug his dad.

Lloyd sighed and hugged his son. I rubbed Lloyd's back.

"I love you max. Be good for mom."

He nodded. "Bye."

I took max before kissing lloyd. He smiled sadly. I rubbed his cheek.

"Call me tonight?" I asked. He nodded.

"I love you."

"I love you too." I whispered.

He sighed before pulling away. Max stared at him.

"I love you both." Lloyd said. He kissed Max's cheek.

And before I knew it, he was off. My love.

I kissed maxs head before heading inside. I set him down, making him cry.

"Hey..." I whispered. He whimpered.

I kissed his head before getting him up. I put some water in a cup and let him drink some. He hiccuped and sighed.

"Do you wanna nap?"

He nodded. I brought him up to his room. I kissed his head and laid him down.

"I'll make some dinner for us okay? It's alright."

He nodded, teary eyed. Just like his dad.

"I love you." I whispered. He nodded. I quietly walked out before going to the kitchen, and holding onto the counter.

I hadn't cried yet. I just held back my tears.

I looked up at the ceiling. I wasn't gonna cry, but holy shit I was so sad.

I was gonna be okay.