Fifty Shades of Minho - Suppressed desire

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Pov Jisung

Now that I had walked home, I undressed directly and went into my bathroom. My whole body ached and with a warm shower I wanted to relax my muscles and then just fall into bed and hopefully forget everything. "Ji?!" I jerked up, which immediately caused me severe pain. What else did Hyunjin want with me at such an hour? In general, I didn't want to see him for now, he had spoken to Minho after all, which was probably the reason why I would most likely not be able to move for the next few days. "Jisung? I know you're there! Now please say something!", "What do you want Hyunjin?", I shouted back angrily. "Um... well I was talking to Minho u-", he started but I interrupted him immediately. "I know! He picked me up today to talk to me about it!" Now it was quiet. "Please just go now, hyung," "Jisung I... I'm sorry." I turned off the tap. "Go!", I called out again and a moment later the door from my flat closed. I turned the shower back on and just stood there, even though the water was really extremely cold for a moment. But I simply needed this short shock. I had realised that I belonged to Minho, but he didn't belong to me and that he didn't see me as anything more than a sex partner bound to him by a contract anyway. I swallowed. Was this my life now?

I swallowed again, hoping deep down that it wouldn't be. However, I was also pretty sure that it wouldn't be and that is exactly what my life is now. I washed the shampoo I had applied out of my hair, noticing as I did so how my whole body relaxed and my bottom didn't hurt quite so much anymore. I turned the water off again after a while and got out of the shower. There I dried myself carefully and got dressed. Since I absolutely had to study after the shower, I put on some cosy pyjamas. When this was done, I went to my room to sit at my desk.

-little time skip-

Time passed and it was already two weeks since I had last heard from Minho. He hasn't written to me since he punished me. I was very busy as I was writing a paper tomorrow that would decide whether or not I would be allowed to take the final exams. I had spent a lot of time studying for this the last few days and although this exam would decide my future, I could hardly concentrate. For days, Hyunjin kept ringing my doorbell to talk to me. It worked the first few times, but now I ignored it most of the time.He was even more persistent at the university and was already waiting for me at my desk at the beginning of the lesson, so that at some point I only entered the hall together with the professor. I wasn't mad at him anymore, just terribly uncomfortable for yelling at him, which is why I avoided him. Changbin was always with me during these two weeks and helped me a lot with Hyunjin. So I wasn't completely alone. I closed the book "음악 과 작곡" in front of me.전문 음악 - 음악 워크북 (Music and Composition Professional Music - Workbook Music). I had my doubts about ever achieving my dream of producing music, although Hyunjin always told me that I was incredibly good at writing songs. Still, I was unsure.I was yawning and stretching when I suddenly heard a ring. It was probably Hyunjin and not wanting to continue like this I got up and went to open the door for him. As soon as that was done, he jumped into my arms as expected and I could hear a soft whimper. His arms tightened around me as he spoke, "I'm sorry Jisung, I shouldn't have done that. I just wanted to help, honestly! Can you forgive me?", "I forgive you, I did that a long time ago. And I think I have to apologize too, Hyunjin. I shouldn't have yelled at you. I just felt so uncomfortable shouting at you afterwards see... Especially the first few days I was angry, but after that I didn't know exactly what to do.", "You weren't angry at all?", he then asked and pulled away, looked at me. "Jisung!" He slapped my arm lightly, "I thought so! Then I tried making cheesecake for nothing and ruined my kitchen?!" And already the drama Lama Hyunjin was back. "Sorry?" I smiled a little, "Pff, I want an iced americano with whipped cream and a drizzle of white mocha for that." As he said this he walked towards the sofa and sat down on it looking at me, we chatted about the exam and decided that Hyunjin would stay with me tonight so that we ended up snuggled up next to each other in mine Lying in bed."Do you really have to go to your dad's tomorrow?", Hyunjin looked me in the eye "I want and will Hyunie Hyung. I miss him." He nodded briefly, "Okay... Good night, Hannie," Hyunjin murmured softly and when I wanted to answer, he was already asleep, in the time that Hyunjin and I hadn't talked anymore, I realized how important he was to me and even now I was just incredibly happy that he was now lying next to me and was sleeping quietly, so without saying anything I lay down comfortably and dreamed of a beautiful man named Lee Minho.

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