do they know?
cheeks stained with tears.
arms, covered with crimson.
it trickles down.
the pain radiates.
my head aches.
people don't know how it feels.
pressing a blade farther and farther.
wanting it to go deeper.
wanting to leave a scar.
wanting to die.
hating your own body.
do they really understand?
sinking in despair.
the fear faced and battled with every day.
feeling numb, worthless.
when the only thing you can truly feel is pain.
do they realize?
dreaming of dying.
bridges.
ropes.
water.
suffocating.
shaking every night in bed.
not being able to sleep.
not eating.
1 pill.
2 pills.
3 pills.
4 pills.
taking medication every day.
surviving through the pain.
but never dying.
wrapping yourself with bandages.
staring at it.
