My pillow is drenched with an ugly mixture of tears and blood.
I have a ragged breath.
I rotated my head right and left on my pillow.
My thoughts won't leave me.
Instead, they get louder and louder.
My voice becomes hoarse.
I get a hitch in my throat.
I scream in pain.
My lungs are exhausted from crying.
I get a throbbing pain in my head.
"why?" I shout in my bedroom, starting to weep.
My only response is the sad hollering of the wind.
Realization hits.
I'm alone.
Long salty tears fall on my already wet face.
I clutch my tangled brown hair.
I whimper and shake in bed.
I wish this pain would end. It has been going on for months.
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it will end. it won't last forever.
