if you are in a crisis or really need to talk to someone, feel free to call 988.
your information is confidential and you can rest assured that it will not be shared with unauthorized parties.
if you don't want to call, you can chat here: https://988lifeline.org/chat/
you don't have to deal with your problems alone. 
i have chatted with 988 and it really helps. 
feel better! 
                                      
                                          
                                   
                                              
                                           
                                           
                                               
                                                  