can i hide?
i don't want to face the world.
im worried about things i don't have to worry about.
but i cant really control it.
its because of the anxiety disorders but-
it feels like everything is my fault.
why are people so loud?
every word people say is useless.
their days only filled with small talk and social media.
those people who don't care about others and are so self-centered are everywhere.
digging my nails into my thighs,
people give me anxiety.
i wish i could get rid of all human contact.
and just be alone.
life would be better that way, maybe.
people murmur about me. i hate it because i don't know what they're saying.
people whisper and point at me. i hear my name being mentioned in their gossip.
people avoid me, always walking past me.
when they don't realize that even a small 'hi' would make my day.
people live but for no purpose. the people around me live because they do. they wake up, do their work, and go back to sleep. and that cycle continues for them. they have no meaning in life.
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anyways, im going to sleep now.
good night.
i hope you kind of understand what i was trying to say. it was pretty confusing, and im sorry for that.
