days pass,
i flip my monthly calender 12 times a year.
i walk around aimlessly
my mind is in a haze
i never talk to anyone
i feel nothing
everything is numb
am i even alive?
i bang my head against the wall
pain comes and goes
who am i?
what am i doing?
i turn on and off the light switch
i pace back and forth in my living room.
i stare at my reflection in the mirror
hello.
i check the time on my phone
i fill up a glass of water
and throw the liquid out in the sink.
and repeat it
where am i?
no one calls me.
did everyone already forget about me?
im hungry but i don't eat.
i chug down glasses of water.
what am i doing?
i go up and down the stairs.
what am i doing?
i walk outside and stand still, looking at dead trees.
what am doing, really?
nothing.
