Can you please fix me?

a broken glass

"maybe she'll leave me....

Those words kept repeating in her mind, in the shower, and through the whole dinner.

Carina noticed that maya was distant in the last week but the blonde seemed more distant and a little off today.

It was hard for carina to see maya like this because the last time she saw her behaving like this she found herself in a hospital room and maya screaming at her.

She was scared that maya will go back to her old ways the embrace the pain and eyes forward, she was especially scared that she will have to live all of it again because she think that she will not survive it this time.

Sometimes carina hates whoever controls her life.

First, her mom left her with her dad who has bipolar disorder and won't admit it so she had to take care of him, second her mom died, third her brother was killed by a human trafficker.

So when she met maya and fall in love with her after arizona, she thought that God decided to give her a break.

And boy was she wrong, the same day that she found out that she isn't pregnant, she almost lost her wife.

She was so angry with everything, she was mad that she couldn't get pregnant and she is an OB for god sake, and she thought that must be another sick joke.

She was also mad at Maya because she pushed her self even though she know that her body can't handle it after months of abuse.

And she is specially hate Lane Bishop because he's the one who taught her precious Maya to hide her pain.

She was mad and hated almost everyone and everything except babies how could she hate them?

She wanted one so bad, but she and Maya decided....

Carina snapped out of her thoughts at the sound of a broking glass.

"Bambina?" She yelled through the house, but no answer.

She begin to worry that maya got hurt, so she got up and went to check on her.

But she wasn't prepared to find maya sitting on the floor, crying quietly, trying to pick up the broken glass with bleeding fingers.

"Bambina what's going on?" she asked softly.

Maya looked up at the sound with a terrifying look on her face.

"a'm sowwy I didn't meant to I pwomise, it slipped out of my hand, I clean no mad rina pwease" she said, panicking tear still slipping down her cheeks.

Carina was worried for the blonde, but more importantly, she was confused, a million questions running through her mind, but one question stood up amongst all of them

"Why is she talking like this?"

To be continue...