ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴅᴏɴᴛ ɢɪᴠᴇ ᴜᴘ ᴏɴ ᴍᴇ

forty two

Early at the morning we all get ready to leave for Azerbaijan.

"Everything ready?" - Charles look around our stuff before getting it in the car
"I think so!" - i yawn sleepy and get in the  car
"Sorry for leaving that early, i just don't wanted to deal with all the paparazzi and fans again! It will be a nightmare when my media manager need to fix that from yesterday."
"I can say that you wasn't at your best yesterday so that was the reason. I'm sure you'll be okay." - i kiss him and he nod
"I hope so. It's the same shit again." - he sigh and start driving to the airport

We arrive there and Charles put our stuff in the jet. We get there and fly out to Azerbaijan.

During the flight me and Mateo were mostly sleeping while Charles was sleeping only barely and i was not sure why is this.

We landed in Azerbaijan and head to the hotel. All around it there was fans who were waiting for drivers.

"Oh really..." - he sigh and lift Mateo in his arms
"It's okay baby."
"Please just ignore them." - he grab my hand.
"Charles Charles! Over here! Can you sign my hat?"
"Erm..sure yeah." - he quickly sign it hiding Mateo's face from the flashes
"Thank you so much!"
"At least you're lucky he signed your hat! Remember he didn't even say hello to the delivery man!"
"Guys come on, grow up! I wasn't feeling okay and i wasn't in condition to do anything!" - he said calmly but there was still this frustration in his voice

He signed few more things and we get inside

"All good?" - i grab his hand and kiss it gently
"Yeah...let's just go to our room. I need to go to the track and do the media stuff, would you two please stay here I don't want them to say things about you too."
"Yes Charlie we will stay here. Just be calm, i know you'll be okay." - i tried to take Mateo from him but he was holding him tight to him
"I love you both so much." - he kiss Mateo and me
"We love you too baby." - I hug him

He change and head to the track. We stayed with Mateo at the hotel.

He was acting strange, there was some tension in his behaviour. I know the media pressure is big but he knows we're here with us.

He came back from the paddock with lunch.

"How it was? Are you okay?" - i stand and wrap my hands around him
"Yes baby, let's eat. Do you two fancy a dinner out tonight? With Mateo?"
"Of course! It will be amazing!" - i smile
"Are you sure everything with the situation is good and solved? I don't want you to be worried for this always." - he hesitated for a moment but slowly nod
"I think so, it was little too much. Let's leave it."
"As you say." - i kiss him

I get ready while he was getting Mateo ready.

"Charlie?"
"Mhm?" - he look at me
"Do everyone know that I'm pregnant? Look it's really visible." - i slowly put my hand on my belly
"I didn't tell anyone. Should i tell at least my media manager?"
"Yeah...at least." - i look at him with watery eyes
"Hey don't worry, they will not say anything."
"They were too cruel when I was pregnant with Mateo.."
"Baby..i promise they won't tell anything."
"Charles...i'm scared..."
"Don't be, just cover it with something." - he look around and hand me his sweater

I put it on and zip it. He take Mateo in his arms and we head outside.

He drive us to one restaurant. We go to a quiet place for us because we really wanted it to be private.

We spend one good night, talking about us, future, wedding and stuff.

Mateo was fast asleep on Charles lap while he was stroking his hair gently.

"I love how much you care about him." - i  kiss his cheek
"I really love you two so much." - he kiss me back
"We love you more."
"Let's go home, it's been a long day and you have practice tomorrow."
"Okay darling...just take him I don't want to wake him up." 

I take him gently in my arms and we head back to the car.

Charles drive us to the hotel. We get there and i put Mateo in his bed.

Charles was talking with his media manager for that I'm pregnant.

"Charlie..it's late come on let's go to sleep." - i beg him
"One minute...get in the bed I'm coming."
"Charlie I don't want to get in the bed without you.." - i sit on the bed because because the sickness hit me pretty hard
"I'm going to be sick.." - i run to the bathroom making it just in time

I hear Charles coming while i was throwing up.

"Baby-" - he kneel next to me
"It's fine-" - i tried to speak but without much success
"Are you okay?" - he was holding my hair
"Yeah...i think so." - i stand and grab his hand because i was dizzy
"I'm here." - he kiss my head and wrap his hands around me
"I'll brush my teeth and I'm coming."
"I'm staying,come on." - he hand me toothbrush and toothpaste
"Thanks." - i tried to smile even if i was exhausted

I washed my teeth and Charles take me in his arms. He was kissing my head gently.

"I love you so much." - i tried to hold back tears because I'm emotional
"Hey, don't cry please. I love you more my girl." - he hand me my pijamas and continue kissing me constantly
"I'm sorry for crying, I don't know why I'm crying." - i snuggle into him
"Darling, don't apologise. We are together in this. Let's go to sleep you need it."
"I absolutely need only you."
"I'm here darling, i will always be."
"Thank you love."

We lay on the bed and fall asleep quickly.