ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴅᴏɴᴛ ɢɪᴠᴇ ᴜᴘ ᴏɴ ᴍᴇ

fifty one

Charles*

I was already getting ready to go on the track when i heard Maddy awake. It's early and i didn't wanted her to wake up thar early.

"Love?" - i hear her searching for me
"I'm here love, why are you awake?" - i go to her and she hug me
"I want to come and support you. Please." 
"Love. I don't think it's a good idea." - i wasn't sure what's right in this moment
"Please Charles! I never miss race when I'm here!"
"I know, i know. I don't know what to do honestly. This is stressing me out whole weekend. I just want you all to be okay. That's all it matters now for me." - i said desperately and kiss her head
"I don't know what's right too." - she said sadly
"Ok i can find someone to look after you, i can take Mateo too just in case. What about that?"
"That's ok. But someone close. Like Isa or Luisa."
"Ok, let me call Lando and Carlos, can you just get Mateo ready?" - i kiss her and she nod
"Of course. Thank you for everything you do for me. It really means so much. I love you." - she hug me with watery eyes
"I will do everything for you and our family." - i let my forehead fall on hers as she smile a little
"Go. You'll be late. That's the last thing we want." - she kiss me again 

I called Lando, as always when i need him he don't answer. Happily Carlos answered me.

I make a short call telling him everything and why i need Isa to look after Maddy.

Isa was ok with that and Carlos said she will be here in 10 minutes.

I was happy someone will be around her when i can't. Someone i can fully trust.

I go back to Maddy to take Mateo and leave.

"Daddy why mommy is not coming?"
"She needs to rest buddy. I promise everything is okay for now." - i assured my son even if i wasn't sure in what I'm saying
"Daddy is right amour. I'm fine. You will go and enjoy the race." - she kiss his head and Mateo nod

I left after Isa come, just to make sure everything is and will be fine.

"Charles, you can leave. We are going to be fine. I'll call you if there's something."-Isa said sitting next to Maddy
"Yes please. Because Maddy is not going to call me." - I look at Maddy and she shake her head
"I know you won't. So Isa please, no matter what call me or Carlos if I'm not answering. I swear if I'm not here if something happens I'll never forgive myself." - i look at Maddy seriously and this time she nod reaching for me to hug me before i leave
"I love you." - she whisper and i smile a little
"I love you more." - i kiss her and left with Mateo.

Maddy*

"What is going on? Charles never wanted someone to look after you before?" - Isa asked concerned
"Honestly. I think we are stressing too much. Especially him. Every time when something happens he's not with me and he probably blames himself for that." - i shrug shoulders and sigh
"I understand. I'm sure Carlos will take his mind off this things. We will be happy to help you two." - Isa hug me and i sigh in relief
"You don't know how thankful i am now. For you and Carlos. You are the best friends we can have!"
"Oh, I'm happy for that. But now you should rest. Charles told me that you need a full days in bed."
"Yep i do. And it actually feels good to finally rest especially now. The sickness is the worst part." - i said as i sit on the bed
"I can imagine. Do you want breakfast?"
"I want but..yesterday i throw up everything i ate. It felt terrible." - i said looking down
"Ok, you should eat careful. I'll order something little, just because you don't need to stay hungry." - she said stroking my hair
"Thank you." - i whisper

When the breakfast came i ate really few things before laying down on the bed for a nap.

Charles*

"Mate that was weird..Charles? Charles! Are you listening to me?" - Carlos said next to me
"Oh yeah sorry mate. I'm just thinking about.."
"Maddy. I know. Mate it's fine relax. She is ok. Isa would call you or at least me if she wasn't."
"I know, i know! I trust Isa. I just can't stop worry. At least Mateo is in Ferrari so i can relax for that."