ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴅᴏɴᴛ ɢɪᴠᴇ ᴜᴘ ᴏɴ ᴍᴇ

seventy three

Maddy*

*Time skip to Abu Dhabi*

After a few days much needed rest for Charles in home, today we're leaving for Abu Dhabi. I can see he's nervous, he don't talk much with me or Mateo either. He was distant from us most of the time.

He didn't got enough sleep, he didn't ate properly. He was suffering in his own way.

I didn't said anything, the stress is huge for him and all i can do is support him.
He have a massive weekend ahead of him.

By now we were sitting in the plane, still distant of ourselves.

He was in the back talking with his team and i was Infront with the kids.

I can hear the nervousness in his voice, i just know him too well.

I don't know if he needs me or no but I'm ready to be here for him. As long as he want to.

"Why daddy is not staying with us?" Mateo asked me suddenly.
"Daddy is working now baby. He needs to be focused." I explained stroking his hair.
"But I'm sure daddy will win."
"I'm sure too, but now he needs to work a little bit to achieve it." I sigh and leaned back on the seat.

I heard Charles ending his call and coming to us. I wasn't sure what to expect. We didn't talked properly since whole week.

He took a seat next to me and sigh. He rested his head on my shoulder and closed his eyes.

I wasn't too sure what to do..I just let him lay there.

"I'm sorry." He said and lifted his head a little bit.
"Why? You didn't do anything?" I smiled. I know why he's apologizing but i wasn't mad or something. He didn't need to.
"You know, being distant, not talking to much. Everything."
"You don't need to love." I kissed his forehead and he smile barely.
"Thank you, for understanding me, for being with me."
"It's the last thing i can do." I stroked his cheek and he layed his head back on my shoulder.

Mateo snuggled into his chest, letting him know he also supports him.

Lya was on my chest trying to reach Charles so she can also touch him.
He smiled at her and kissed her forehead.

We landed in Abu Dhabi after a long flight, Charles took a shower and finally let himself to take some rest.

I took care of the kids and got them to sleep, so he can get some rest before tomorrow.

Charles*

I took another sip of my beer, looking through my phone. Everyone were texting me "good luck". It was stressing me even more.

What if i let everyone down?

What if I fought for nothing?

What if I loose it?

"Baby.." i heard Maddy behind me.
"Hey love." I sighed and she sat on my lap.
"You're so tense up." She stroke my hair gently and i smiled.
"Yeah..." I nod pulling her closer to me.
"Don't be, you know that I'm so proud of you. You're my champion since day one that i know you." She snuggled into me slightly.
"Thank you love but..i just want to win it finally. I fought so much. If i loose it, i probably won't be able to take it."
"You'll win it, believe in yourself because we believe in you." She kissed me and i hugged her tightly.

She was my comfort place right now, having her here with me is absolutely amazing.

"Let's go to bed. You are tired." She spoke and i nod.

I really was, my head could not take more. I just wanted everything to be over already.

I dropped on the bed and sigh, Maddy layed next to me snuggling into my chest.

We left Mateo and Lya to my mom who was also here with us. Of course we will take them on Sunday but now I'd rather them to stay in the hotel.

Everyone are on me, fans, press, media. I don't wanted to risk anything. Lya is still a baby and Mateo is also little.

I even held Maddy close to me not letting her go somewhere alone. There was many people who hated me and don't wanted me to win.

They wanted to distract me or even hurt me in some way.

My arm was tightly wrapped around Maddy's waist as we entered Ferrari.
She kissed me once again before i left to do my stuff.

Maddy*

Charles left to work and i stayed in his garage, the whole weekend was so busy and chaotic. I don't wanted to be part of all the stuff that is going on outside.

The fans are crazy, most of them supported Max and don't wanted Charles to win.

It was terrifying.

"Hey you. I see you're also nervous." Isa came to me and i hugged her.
"Nervous yes but more scared. You see the fans are going crazy and knowing Charles is somewhere out it's scaring me." I spoke and she nod understanding me.
"It's gonna be okay." She gave me a comforting smile.
"I really hope so." I sigh worriedly.

We talked a lot before the start of the session, i waited for Charles to come, i wanted to make sure he's okay.

However he didn't came, he went directly to get ready and then to his car.

I sighed and looked down.

I don't wanted him to be distant. I'm his fucking girlfriend i understand him. Why he needs to be acting like that.

He took first place in both of the practices and now was still gone to do interviews.

It was already frustrating for me to just stay alone like crazy and wait for him since hours.

He came suddenly and wrapped his arm around me making me sign to walk.

"Charles what the fuck?" I pushed his arm off me.
"Just walk Maddy, there's an media crew behind us." He wrapped his arm around me again.
"Charles this is so stupid."
"I'm trying to protect you! That's stupid?"He said confused.
"No..just the weekend." I soften up and putted my hand on his.
"I know." He nod and unlock the car so i can get in.

The media crew stopped him and he was forced to talk to them again.

It looked like an neverending nightmare for him and also us as a family.

Because at the end of the day, he's coming home to us, being tired, in bad mood and emotional.

We arrived at the hotel, Pascale had putted the kids to bed and also cooked us diner, which i was really grateful for.

"I think I'm going to bed." Charles mumbled not even greeting his mom.
"Is he okay?" She asked me worriedly.
"The problem is, I don't even know." I sigh and sat down to eat.
"Do you want me to stay? Just to keep you some company?"
"It's fine, thank you. You spend whole day with the kids..go take some rest." I smiled and hugged her.

I layed on the bed next to Charles. He tried to pull me to him but i pushed him away.

I don't wanted to "distract" him.

"Hey, come here?"
"No, it's better when we are separated. I won't distract you."
"What makes you think you are distracting me?" He half sat on the bed and turn on the lights, looking at me.
"Charles it's late please-"
"No, answer me. What makes you think you're distracting me?" He said more serious taking my hand.
"Because you are distant, i thought me and the kids are distracting you! It feels like it at least! I tried to understand you, I really did. But i feel like we are not helping you in any way!" I said with tears in my eyes.
"I'm distant because I don't want to take it out on you or the kids! Because i know I'll be like this. Nervous, frustrated, tired, emotional! I don't want you to experience it with me. You and the kids are my biggest support!" He whipped my tears and kissed me.
"I'm sorry, I really am." I said sadly.
"No, I'm sorry for making you feel this way, I'll apologize to Mateo also if it looks like i don't care."
"It's fine. He understands you." I smiled and kissed him again.

I don't actually like this one but i had to update this in some wayyy. :((