ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴅᴏɴᴛ ɢɪᴠᴇ ᴜᴘ ᴏɴ ᴍᴇ

sixty seven

Maddy*

After a good few days in home and the things with Lya had calmed down we were ready to leave for Mexico.

I was happy everything is calmer because for sure some of the days home felt shitter than everything.

I just wanted to be with Charles, enjoy my time with him and the kids.

I was only quite worried about bringing Lya to the paddock. Of course Charles did bought her pram with us but we didn't actually told the world i was pregnant.

I was staying away from social media in the last months and my only photos i had while i was pregnant were with Charles's clothes and it's not really visible.

I didn't attend to the last few races that maybe caused some rumours but we didn't actually cared.

As long as we were happy and healthy, people's opinion doesn't matter.

However it mattered to me in that moment. I was still vulnerable and everything can easily make me feel bad or insecure. Especially when it comes to Lya, second pregnancy and everything.

I sat on the plane with Lya sleeping on my chest while Charles was drawing with Mateo.

I was mostly silent, I didn't knew what to say or talk about with Charles.

I knew i can tell him about all my thoughts but right now i wanted him focused on the championship battle.

It was intense and hard to watch from my side and i can't imagine what is to fight for it in real life.

Sometimes i wasn't sure how he handle the whole thing. The pressure, the nerves, the effort he puts..

And still he was standing and being the best support to me and the kids when we needed him.

I knew he's a strong guy, he is the one in the relationship. He showed it many times and I'm still pretty impressed by it.

Even if sometimes he wasn't the strong one in the situations like, his father's birthday, Jules's birthday. He handled the days pretty well.

"Baby. We landed." I felt his hand touched my shoulder getting me out of my thoughts.
"Oh, okay." I said and gently took Lya.

He called a taxi which drove us to the hotel. Like always he had to go and have a media day.

Today i was sure i want us to go with him. Mateo really miss to run around Ferrari's hospitality, to watch the engineers doing things on Charles's car.

I took away enough of his time home with me instead of doing that so there was nothing that can stop us from going.

"Baby, you sure about coming?" Charles came to my side while i was putting Lya in her car seat.
"Of course i want to baby, look at Mateo, he's absolutely shining about that us coming with you." I smiled at Mateo who was sitting on the passenger seat where he usually stays since Lya's birth.
"I can always take only him with me if you don't want to come." He kissed my back and i smiled.
"I want to. We'll just protect Lya and everything will be fine." I turned and kissed him.
"I talked with Ferrari they got security for you two."
"Love, this is too much. I mean we will just hide her face." I laughed and kissed him again.
"It's not too much, there's so many people on the paddock, they can do something to you or Lya. I can't let that happen."
"Thank you for protecting us." I hugged him tight.

The whole ride was calm, Lya was happily looking around while Charles and Mateo were talking.

At the moment Charles parked his car the security guards were surround the car. He took Mateo and i took Lya.