ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴅᴏɴᴛ ɢɪᴠᴇ ᴜᴘ ᴏɴ ᴍᴇ

fifty nine

Charles*

The next morning i woke up with Maddy snuggled gently into me still sleeping.

I felt like I don't want to leave. I wanted to stay with her forever. Just looking at her.

She wasn't at her best now. Messy hair, my clothes on her, no make up. She was just like i love her. Natural.

I stayed a little bit longer even if i was already late. Everyone will understand. It's about her. And I'm sure Carlos talked to the team.

I left a note for her, just to motivate her a little bit. I know she wasn't feeling well and i know she needs me but she also wants me to drive today cause the world title is getting closer and closer.

I arrived at the paddock and everyone were around me already. Fans, paparazzi, interviewers.

I can't lie I don't felt good.

"Charles, Charles? Can you confirm that your fiancée gave a birth?" - was the first question i heard.
"Can you just move please. I need to go." - i said walking past them.

I reached Ferrari garage and my son ran to me with worried face.

"Hey buddy, what's wrong?" - i kneel and look at him.
"Is mommy ok? Can we go and see her?"
"Buddy, she is as fine as she can be. After the race we will go straight there ok?"
"Why not now?" - he look at me sad.
"You want to see her now?" - i said undarstanding him.
"Alright..What about Isa and you to go and see mommy? Me and Carlos can't come now buddy, we need to work."
"Alright." - he nod slowly.

They left and i tried to focus on the stuff i need to do.

Maddy*

I woke up without Charles by my side. I was still feeling so poorly.

I really wanted Charles to be here right now so i can be more calm. I know after few races he will be home constantly but now it will be hard.

I saw a note on the table and smile. Typical Charles.

"I hope you're doing ok even without me by your side, i will be back as fast as i can. I love you!"

It helped me a little bit, mentally. Knowing he's out there giving his best for me makes me feel so happy and proud.

I snuggled more into his sweater relaxing a little bit.

They were going to give me the baby later so i can try and feed her.

I hear Mateo's voice down to the corridor.

I smiled. He is always worried for me.

He entered the room with Isa following him. He quickly run to my bed and sit next to me.

"Baby, it wasn't needed to come. I'm doing ok." - i tried to assure my son even if i was lying.
"Maybe you are but I'm worried for you. Daddy and Carlos can't come, they need to work, but Isa got me here. I really love her." - he said honestly snuggling into me.
"I'm very happy you love Isa baby, and yeah daddy and Carlos needs to work right now but when they are over they will also come." - i said with smile.
"Can i see my baby sister?"
"When they give her here of course you can." - i said kissing his head.

I gave Mateo my phone just yo distract him for a bit while i talk with Isa.

"Are you ok? Like really?" - she asked me sitting next to me.
"Not at all. It feels terrible honestly. His birth was easier. I really need Charles and to get out of here."
"You will be out of here, give yourself some time. You literally gave a birth yesterday." - she hugged me gently.
"The best thing is she's healthy. I still remember how Charles looked at her. It was so magical."

They gave me the baby and Mateo was the first one to come and see her.

He was edited as Charles.

"She's so little. I love her!" - he excitedly said sitting by my side.
"I'm sure she loves you too baby." - i said pulling him closer.

Most of the kids are jealous of their newborn brother or sister but Mateo is just the opposite. He loves her so much. I can see it in his eyes.

"Can i hold her? Pleasee?"
"Of course you can baby!" - i placed her in his arms and he gently stroked her cheek.

It was so sweet.

I send a picture to Charles and put the phone down.

"Baby, i need to feed her." - i said taking her from his arms.

I tried to feed her and surprisingly it was successful. She was now sleeping in my arms.

I stand from the first time since yesterday and successfully put her in her crib.

It was hell of a pain but i didn't showed that Infront of Mateo. He was by my side helping me walking.

"Mommy is it hard? Do you need more help?" - he said holding my hand.
"No baby, I'm all good. Would you be quiet now? Baby sister is sleeping and mommy needs some sleep too." - he only nod and i smile.

He is taking his job as a big brother really good already.

I slept till before the start of the race. I wanted to watch Charles.

Isa and Mateo were already left so i took the baby and feed her again.

I put on the race and start feeding her. She was making little noises everytime they mentioned Charles.

The whole race was stressful for Charles especially, he was swearing a lot and he sounded very frustrated.

He don't even cheer up when he won the race. Ferrari again screwed up the strategy but he still managed to win.

The podium ceremony finished Charles already texted me he's coming.

By how fast he came i realised that he didn't did his interviews after the race just to come back.

At the moment he enter his eyes locked again on our daughter. He immediately soften up and look up at me.

"Hey, proud of you." - i said quietly.
"Hey, thank you." - he put his things down and come straight to me.

He hugged me gently and sigh tiredly.

"I know it's not the time maybe but..what will be her name?" - i gently said and he look at me.
"I don't know..it honestly slipped out of my mind. What do you think about it?"
"I want it to be something that is sentimental to both of us." - i said with smile and he laugh a little bit.
"Lya." - he said with happy voice.
"I love it." - i said also that happy.
"Lya Hervé Leclerc." - he slowly said with watery eyes.
"I absolutely love it." - i whisper kissing his forehead.
"Tomorrow I'll sign the papers. Right now i want to be with you." - he said laying on the bed already.

We were both tired, mentally and physically. We will need time for ourselves after the whole birth to get back to our normal life and me to be fully recovered.