Two Worlds Collide

Chapter 42

Chapter 42

"Sometimes I feel my heart is breaking
But I stay strong and I hold on cause I know
I will see you again, whoa
This is not where it ends
I will carry you with me, yeah, yeah" - See you again - Carrie Underwood

This week has been one of the hardest weeks for me. I haven't felt this sad since when my mom told me we were moving here.

I've still be trying to avoid Logan and my friends and at first it was really hard. Avoiding Logan is like trying to avoid your mom when you live in the same house. It's not that easy.

Eventually, I think my friends gave up. They got tired of fighting with me and I guess they realized that I needed space.

Logan leaves tomorrow and quite honestly, as much as it kills me that he's leaving, I'm ready for him to go. That way I don't have to feel the guilt of not spending his last week with him.

I wish I wasn't so damn stubborn and I would have spent this week with him like he wanted. But this is what I do; I push people away because it's easier to let go.

My friends' cars were parked outside of Logan's house, including a moving truck. As I watched from my bedroom window, I see my friends help put moving boxes in the big truck that will be driving to California while Logan and his mom will fly there.

I watched as Logan carried a big box to the back of the truck. Even though I was a good bit of feet away, I could still see his muscles flex from his grey shirt sleeve t-shirt he had on. His brown tousled hair looked slightly damp like he had been sweating but it only made him look sexier.

I noticed that he had let his facial hair grow out a little. Even from here I could see the slight but yet still there, stubble he had on his face.

Despite the situation, my friends were taking it pretty well. They were laughing and joking around out there while packing things for Logan to move. It made me sad but I knew they were trying to make the best out of a bad situation. My heart clinched as I saw Kelsey playfully hit Logan and him hit her back then tackle her in a hug. It's not that in jealous because I know Kelsey and Logan are just close friends but I'm jealous I'm not out there.

I know what you're thinking. Get out there and have fun with your friends while you can. But it's just not that easy, I wish it was though.

I felt like a creep as I watched from my window but I wanted to soak in as much of Logan as I could before he leaves tomorrow. Who knows when I'll see him again?

Logan finished putting the boxes in the moving truck and turned his body towards my house. He looked up to my window and our eyes met. My body froze as we stared into each other's eyes even though we were many yards away.
My heart pounded and I knew that if I didn't look away soon then I would have another break down. He raised in hand up in a wave and dove behind the curtain but just in time to see the sad look that came across his face.

I was hurting him and that broke my heart.

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The shrill ring of my phone is what woke me up the next morning. I blindly reached for it on my bedside desk and answered it. "Hello?" I said groggily.

It was my mother. "Sweetie, there was a note for you on the door this morning. I saw it when I left for work, you might want to go see what it is."

I groaned, "You woke me up to tell me that I have a note taped to the door?" I asked her.

"Mmhh," she said oblivious to my sarcastic tone, "Have a good day!" She hung up.

I groaned as I rolled over in bed to try and go back to sleep. No luck so I guess I might as well get up and see what that note is about.