I Caught You Looking ~ An Aru Shah AU Fanfiction

I Caught You Looking AU: Chapter Eighteen

QOC:

"Pain in this life is not avoidable, but the pain we create avoiding pain is unavoidable."

~R.D. Laing

⚠️Language Warning – This chapter may contain a little more cussing meant for a little bit of a mature age audience! (Not that I should be talking, I cuss all the time lmao) But just be warned!! Enjoyyyyy <333⚠️

Aru:

Aiden sighed and I heard the click of his car doors unlocking. "Do you wanna go for a ride while I talk to you?"

I blinked slowly as the tears that were forming in my eyes receded.

"What?" I asked in a normal voice.

"Do you wanna go for a ride while I talk to you?" He repeated.

"Are you out of your everloving mind?!" I asked, furiously, "NO! I want you in my living room, sitting with me, and talking to me face to face. My mom isn't home, so we're fine to talk about whatever we want to talk about. I know for a fact that you aren't going anywhere special right now, so park your car on my driveway and get your entitled a–"

"Imma stop you right there from expelling anymore energy on me and just do you a favor and park my car," He said calmly, "I'll meet you inside."

I huffed and walked away and into my house. After a minute or so the door opened and he walked in. I sat down on the couch and motioned for him to sit next to me. Instead, he sat on the floor in front of me. So naturally, I sat next to Aiden on the floor. I looked him dead in the eye.

"What's your problem?" I asked simply.

He flinched at my bluntness. "Shah, can we maybe talk about this another time? Maybe not today?"

At this point I was seething. "If you don't talk to me today, when will you talk? I know that if I let you go today you won't come back again."

"Shah, I made a mistake. I really did and I'm so sorry. I can't talk, would you just..." He paused, then sighed. "Would you just do me a huge favor and forget about it?"

"You seem to be jealous whenever there's someone else that likes me, why can't I have anyone like me?! What did I do to deserve this shit?!"

I felt my eyes becoming wet again, my anger receding as I decided to just give up.

"Yeah," I said quietly, "I'll forget. I'll forget everything. I'll forget that we were ever friends in the first place either."

He reached out for my hand. "No, Shah. I didn't mean it like that. You know I didn't."

I recoiled under his touch. He no longer felt as warm as he did before.

"Please just go," I said, getting up, "You don't have to be here anymore. I don't want you here anymore. Go wherever you were going to be before I made the mistake of communicating with you."

I motioned for him to go towards the front door and then ran up to my room, hearing him call after me.

"SHAH!" He yelled after me. I heard his footsteps following me up the stairs. "SHAH, WAIT!"

I locked my room just in time. "GO!" I yelled, sobbing, "I DON'T WANT YOU HERE ANYMORE!" I wiped the hot tears that were running across my cheeks. "I tried, Aiden, I tried," I whispered to myself again and again.

I heard the front door open, and then close, and I rushed to my window to watch him leave in his car.

He'll never change. I should've known.