The Racing Driver

Chapter 11

Mila's POV

We sat at a restaurant together and we were having some food.

"Is there a reason you didn't want to head back with Daniel and Michael?" Ana asked.

"I just wanted some space," I said.

"Is it because of what I said earlier? I'm sorry if I said anything to upset you," she said.

"No it's fine. You didn't,"

"Want to talk about it?"

I shook my head "No. Let's just enjoy our dinner," I said.

We finished up our dinner and headed to the hotel. I didn't know if to go to my room or Daniel's. Despite my better judgement I found myself on my way to Daniel's room.

I stood outside for a moment before knocking. Daniel came to the door and let me in.

"Hey. I was just about to text you and see where you were. It's been hours since I left the track," Daniel said.

"Sorry I ended up having dinner with Ana after we finished up," I said.

I headed over to the window and looked out. Daniel came closer and wrapped his arms around me. His lips kissed my neck softly.

"Daniel... not tonight," I whispered.

His lips moved from my neck. His arms unwrapped from me.

"What's wrong? You've been off since I got out the car from qualifying," he said.

"It's nothing," I said.

"It is something if it's bothering you,"

I took a deep breath and moved to sit on the bed.

"What is this? What are we doing?" I asked.

"What do you mean Mila?" He asked.

"I'm still grieving. How can I give myself fully to someone? Especially when the person likes me like they do," I said.

"I know you're still grieving which is why I am taking this at your pace. We are what ever you see us as,"

"I know you want more. And I don't know if I can give you that right now. I'm scared. I don't want to be heartbroken again and I don't want to hurt you if I can't give you what you want,"

Daniel moved to sit next to me on the bed.

"Mila... we don't need to rush anything. I don't care if this thing between us stays as getting to know each other for a long time. I never expected it to be something serious straight off. I know you were married for 6 years and you never left that person by choice," Daniel said.

"But you don't deserve to be waiting around. You could have anyone in the world who would be able to give you a relationship," I said.

"But they're not you. I'll wait forever if I have to,"

"You shouldn't have too. I'm complicated and I have so much baggage,"

My baggage was my emotion and the effect of the loss of Josh. Who knows what my life would have we like if he was still here.

"I don't care. I like you Mila. We will take this at your pace,"

Why did he have to be so considerate? Be so lovely?

My eyes began to fill with tears and it didn't take long before they all began flowing.

Daniel pulled me onto his lap and he held me close. His hand rubbed up and down my back.