The Man (A Seth Rollins Story) (Reupload)

Chapter 32- I Just Don't Know (Marci's POV)

I heard a knock at my door. I arrived in the next town for RAW and had not gotten out of bed since. I cried all night long and I knew I must look terrible. The clock read 9. Great. RAW was tonight and I didn't sleep at all. I rolled out of bed and opened the door.

"Wow, you don't look so good."

"Nice to see you too, Jon."

"I brought you this."

I looked to see a chocolate bar and tissues.

"What?"

"I don't really know. You always see girls in movies eat lots of chocolate and cry a lot so I thought maybe you could use it."

I sighed and took the items from him before closing the door. As soon as I did, he knocked again. I opened the door and he looked apologetic.

"Can I come in?"

"I just want to be alone."

"But, you know, I've also seen lots of girls in movies always invite their best friends that are girls over to help. And seeing as you don't really have one...I mean, seeing as I'm here, I can help."

"Thanks for pointing out that my best friend is no longer my best friend but honestly, I'm fine."

"Don't do that. You're shutting down again because you're hurt and I can see Colby is doing the same."

The name sliced me open. Would he just go already?

"Sorry. Didn't mean to say his name. But I see what is happening and I'm not going to let my best friends destroy themselves over this. You both have reached a level where you're better than you were before and I'm not letting either of you revert back to your old ways."

"If I let you in, will you please shut up?"

"Yes."

I sighed and let him in. He walked in and sat down on my bed. I went over to him and sat down as well.

"So, you want to talk?"

"No, I want to sleep. But I can't."

"Why?"

"Because I'm too focused on everything else."

"Yeah, Colby couldn't sleep last night either... sorry."

"It's fine. I don't care."

I crawled into bed and soon felt Jon lay down next to me.

"What are you doing?"

"I thought I could try and help you sleep or something."

"By getting in my personal space?"

"I could sing or something."

"I highly doubt listening to you sing could help."

"And why is that?"

"Because I have heard you sing. You're like practically tone deaf."

"Hey, I am the best singer this world has ever known. Come on, let me try."

I sighed. "Fine."

He started to sing and it actually wasn't half bad. It was some song I couldn't remember the name of but it sounded sad. Tears started to brim my eyes as everything from last night washed over me once again. I felt Jon wrap his arms around me and I cried into his chest as he sang me to sleep.

I woke up with enough time to get to the arena and get ready for RAW. The Shield had a match tonight and I wasn't sure I was emotionally and mentally prepared for that. I was still pretty tired so I guess I wasn't physically prepared either. But this was my job and I wasn't going to let personal feelings get in the way of that. I got ready and walked towards the Gorilla. But that was when my heart burst into a million pieces, the shards tearing at every part of me. There stood Colby, flirting with some girl I had never seen before. Jon had said something about us reverting back to our old ways. I guess Colby had already started. Well, if he was going to do that, so would I. I pushed every emotion I had in my mind out and focused on the task at hand. Colby wouldn't distract me. Why should he? He was just some stupid guy who broke my heart and... no, no emotion. I walked to the Gorilla and started stretching for the match. I listened in on Colby's conversation.

"Yeah, we can go out. Just the two of us."

The girl giggled. She was falling into his trap.

"Sounds like fun. Maybe after dinner, we can go back to your room?"

Was she serious? She was going to be with him? My boy... my ex. He was my ex. She could do anything she wanted. I didn't care.

"Sounds good."

She giggled again and walked off.

Colby sighed. "Another girl's number tonight. That makes what, five? Man, they were just lining up to date me as soon as they heard I was single. Oh, Marci, I didn't see you there."

I stood up and looked at him. As I looked at him, my resolve started to break. You can do this.

"It's Marcella to you. Or better yet, don't talk to me."

"Aw, are you hurt by our break up? Look, I'm sorry that you fell in love with me but you should have known the kind of guy I was."

"Yeah, you're right. I should have known. I should have never opened up to you, I should have never dated you and I definitely should have never wanted to marry you. Because you know what you are, Colby?"

"Hm?"

"You're a liar, a cheater and a manipulator. And I feel sorry for you. And you know why?"

"Why?"

"Because you don't contain emotions. I lock mine away, but you? You have none. You're a heartless jerk and I am so glad we're through. Now, I can actually focus on what I came here to do. And that is to wrestle. And no one is going to stand in the way of that. So, flaunt all the women you want, date all the women you want. I don't care. Because you can't hurt me anymore."

I had to walk away after that. I knew if I stayed any longer, I would break down into tears.

I met up with the guys right before the match and my sleep deprivation was kicking in. I could barely stand up straight. Jon had to hold on to me so I didn't fall over. I could feel eyes on Jon and I. I looked over to see Colby looking pretty angry. Was he... jealous? Of Jon and I? No, it couldn't be jealousy. I knew it couldn't. When it was time for the match, we walked out and I put a fake smile on my face. The crowd cheered as we got in the ring. Tonight, Enzo and Cass would be asking for a rematch for their titles. Colby and I would be at ringside while Jon and Joe would fight in the match. I watched as Enzo, Cass and Finn walked out to the ring. The match started and Colby walked over near Jon and Joe. I stayed on the opposite side of the ring near Enzo and Cass. Tonight, The Shield would be turning heel and I was pretty excited about it. About halfway into the match, Jon and Enzo were down. They were both heading to their corners of the ring. Colby jumped up on the apron, distracting the ref. Finn went over to fight him. Enzo was almost at Cass's hand when I pulled Cass's legs out from under him. The crowd started to boo. But then, out of nowhere, Carmella's theme music hit and she came rushing after me. She was supposed to hit me and take me out which would make the match pretty fair again. But the problem was, I was so tired. And as she chased me down, I tripped over my own two feet and hit my head against the ring steps. I touched my head and saw blood. My vision was blurry and I wasn't sure what was what. I tried standing up but I was wobbly.

"Come on."

I didn't know who said it but I looked to see Colby. He looked concerned but was trying not to show it as he picked me up in his arms. We walked backstage towards medical and I tried not to look at him as we walked. It would just bring back memories I didn't want to relive. He set me down on one of the tables as the doctor patched me up. Colby stayed with me the whole time. And it made me wonder, did he hurt as much as I did?