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stay

Chan watched Jisung sleep, eyeing the boy's bruised neck.

He had been placed on duty to watch over the smaller, him and Lee Know fearing that he would try to harm himself if left alone again.

Chan had been chosen to watch Jisung seeing as Lee Know was the one who knew how to cook.

He'd bring both males food, the three of them usually eating in silence.

Well, Lee Know and Chan ate in silence while Jisung pushed his food around.

After convincing Jisung to come back to his room, Chan hadn't left his side. It's been a day now and Chan refused to leave.

It pained his heart that the smaller tried to end his life. It hurt that Jisung wanted to die.

The door to the room opened, Lee Know entering with their dinner.

"Has he woken up?" The younger questioned as he sat down with Chan, handing his boyfriend his dinner.

Chan sighed, "He's been asleep since lunch."

"I don't want to play the blame game," Lee Know started, avoiding eye contact with his boyfriend.

"But he wouldn't be this way if yo-" "Maybe so." Chan interrupted, swallowing his own self hatred.

"But it happened, nothing is going to change."

Glancing up at the latter, Lee Know questioned if Chan even felt bad.

He knew how his boyfriend was, he knew that Chan tended to act carelessly and then regret it later.

"I regret being so harsh. But I don't regret teaching him a lesson."

Lee Know nodded before beginning to eat his own meal.

After a few moments, Jisung sat up, rubbing his eyes with his sweater paw.

As he opened them, he noticed the duo sitting across from his bed, eating their dinner.

Lee Know sat his plate down, rushing over to the younger.

"How are you feeling, sweets?" His voice was laced with concern, Jisung noticing that same siren-like tone to his voice.

"Everything hurts." He admitted, hanging his head.

Everything did hurt. From his ass, to his chest, to his soul. Everything was in pain.

"Would you drink a shake if I brought you one? You need something in your stomach."

Lee Know had knelt down in front of the boy at this point, smiling softly up at him.

Jisung only nodded, honestly feeling quite hungry but knowing he wouldn't be able to hold any solid food down.

Lee Know excused himself before running down the stairs to fetch the smaller a meal replacement shake.

He got a few of these and a few protein shakes, trying to have variety.

Once Lee Know had left the room, Jisung could feel Chan's eyes staring holes into him.

"What?" Jisung sighed, turning his head to face the older.

They held eye contact for a while, Chan noticing how broken the smaller's eyes looked.

I caused that, he thought.

For a moment, he felt bad. He felt awful, actually.

But then the images of Jisung writhing underneath him while he cried out flashed across his mind, causing Chan to not regret a single thing.

I'd do it again to see him cry out like that.

Lee Know reentered the room, holding a shake and a bowl of soup.

"Just in case you think you could hold something down, I brought you some soup."

Jisung mumbled a soft thank you to the older, trying his best to open his shake.

Lee Know watched with sad eyes as the boy in front of him was too weak to open the bottle.

Reaching down, Lee Know took the shake, opening it for the smaller before handing it back.

Another thank you left Jisung's lips before he was slowly drinking the shake.

Chan and Lee Know exchanged glances, the blonde smiling gently at his boyfriend.

Lee Know knows that, deep down, Chan feels awful about the situation.

He would never wish intentional pain on their beloved.

After a while, Jisung finished his shake.

"Do you want to lay back down?" Lee Know questioned gently, seeing the tired look on the smaller's face.

Jisung nodded, crawling back under the covers.

As Lee Know began to walk away, Jisung took hold of his hand, halting his actions.

Lee Know leaned down so that Jisung could whisper something in his ear, to which Lee Know only nodded, a soft blush falling over his cheeks.

The blonde walked over to Chan, holding his hand out for the older to take.

Chan looked up at his boyfriend, confused, only earning a smile from the boy.

Following his boyfriend, Lee Know led him to the bed, telling him that Jisung wants to be held.

Chan hesitantly climbed into the bed, pulling the smaller into his embrace.

Jisung sighed into the warmth of the older, nuzzling his head into Chan's chest.

"I'll be right back, I'm going to put our dishes away."

Chan nodded, glancing down at the younger who was already falling asleep.

Brushing a piece of his hair away from his face, Chan sighed. "I'm going to do my best to be more gentle, doll. Just, please, be patient with me."

Resting his hand on top of the younger's, he sighed. "I want you to be happy, with me, with us. It pains me that you aren't and that you tried to kill yourself because of it."

A single tear fell down his cheek, "I love you, doll. Please, stay with us."

Jisung had to hold back the tears that were threatening to fall from his eyes.

As much as he hated Chan for what he's done to him, he knows that the older loves him.

In his own twisted and fucked up way, Chan adores Jisung, only wanting the best for him.

I'll stay. I'll wait for you.