And Start Over ||SamxBucky||

(chapter 5 Home)

The car ride went by slow, to bucky it felt like he had been in the car for an hour. Raynor and him have been driving for thirty minutes before they turned down a rocky road. They went down the road as bucky felt his heart racing out of his chest. The road was long, it took about a minute to get to the house but when they did, bucky felt that feeling, that feeling when he used to come here all the time. 'Home'

Sam was sitting on his couch drinking hot tea and reading something on his phone. He did this most days, he would sit on the couch for about an hour before getting started with the day. But only this day was different. He sat there and soon heard a noise, like a car pulling in. For a moment he thought it was just Sarah coming back from the store but she already did not to long ago, so now Sam was curious. He shut his phone off and placed it to his side and grabbed his cup of tea that was between his thighs on the coffee table in front of him. As he set the cup down, he got up and stood on his two feet, walking across his living room and going to the front door. He was about to open it but he thought for a moment, trying to remember it's better to be safe than sorry. He went to the window that was close to the door on the left and looked out it, seeing a woman step out of the car, but she seemed very familiar to him, he just couldn't put his finger on it. Maybe he has seen her around the area before? Met her once maybe. He wasn't sure.

Raynor turned off the car and before they both got out she looked to bucky. He was staring at the house, but there was this shine in his eyes when they came up to it, she could see how his eyes lit up just the slightest and it made her heart melt. She watched him for only just a moment but she had to say something before they got out. "James" she said softly. He looked at her almost immediately. He had so many mixed emotions, fear, nervousness, happiness, ect. He didn't know how to feel, but man he missed this place dearly. He missed the smell of the house, it always had this coffee type sweet scent that reminded him of his house. He missed the kids, when they would run up to him when he'd come over to hang out, how they would jump on him when he would come through the front door and hugged him like there was no tomorrow. He loved being around when they would go to stores and he would tag along, sometimes even getting a drink with Sam. He most of all missed Sam, Sam's hugs, the way he would always have a smile on his face no matter what the situation is. He missed they way they would hug each other before bucky would leave after staying over for almost a whole day, the hug would last more than a few seconds, like they would turn into dust at any moment. He missed him.

"Ye-yeah" bucky said, feeling his breath hitch. He was so so happy and scared it was killing him. He knew he was going to have to apologize to Sam today, he was going to tell him why he didn't come over, he didn't want to lie to Sam, Sam didn't deserve that, he deserves to know, and honestly, he deserves to know what's going on with bucky. Raynor smiled warmly, seeing his excitement through his ocean blue eyes that seemed to shine brighter ever since they got there. "It's going to be okay. You guys will love being around each other. I bet he misses you a shit tone, and I know you miss him too, I can see it in you eyes" she said to him. He really did, she was right, and he wasn't going to lie about it. He nodded his head a bit looking at her, listening to her words and looking back at the blue house that was in front of them. He knew when he finally settled in in the house, he knew that this was the best idea and really, Sam had always made him so much happier, but bucky noticed something different about himself, he was more distant than usual, like something is holding him back from meeting or talking to people much, and it bothered the living hell out of him.

She smiled and brought her hand down and un-clicked the seat belt, getting the seat belt out of her way and opening up the car door. He looked back at her and watched her start to step out of the car, she bent down and grabbed the file then she stood back up and closed the door. He sighed deeply, feeling his heart beating faster. He bent his body to the left and reached into the back, grabbing the big duffle bag a bit quick due to his 'Excitement' pulling the bag over him and into his lap, he reached his right hand down, unbuckling himself and opened the door. He pushed himself out and stood on his feet, the rocky road beneath his feet reminding him of all the times he has came here. He held the duffle bag with his right hand and closed the door with his metal one. She walked around the car and patted him in the back, letting him know it was going to be alright. He nodded his head at her, smirking just a bit, happy he was going to be with his best friend after a while of not seeing him. 'you shouldn't have ignored him, what type of friend are you to even ignore him for so long. You are a coward and worthles-' bucky shook his head, trying to tell himself that it was okay and Sam would forgive him. Right?