adhura pyaar ┃abhira (3.0)

heavy heart

Akshara takes a deep breath, her cheeks are pink as she had just spent time with her family going over old pictures of her youth. Kairav had made a slideshow, and had recovered videos of Naira and Kartik telling her they loved her and she was the light in their lives. The future was uncertain, and though everyone was hopeful for her surgery the next day as the day came closer the inevitable fear clouded their hearts. 

She had decided to tell Abhir today, she wasn't going to dwell to deep into it but she wasn't going to lie either. 

"Abhir betu" Akshara calls, as she enters. Abhir's sitting on the bed coloring in his book, looking innocent as ever. She want's to preserve this sight in front of her, her miracle baby. Her son who she had fought life itself for, he was her everything.

Abhir turns to her with a smile, he had taken the divorce hard but he had gotten over it as she had coaxed him slowly. He had also spent a fair share of time with Abhinav which soothed his worries away. "Mumma, look at what I drew!"

He gives her the piece of paper, and her eyes moistened. It had Akshara and Abhir hugging each other, in a tent looking up at the stars. They had their hugs of hot chocolate with marshmellows. 

"Just you and me" He grins, "like old times, i miss spending time with you"

She looks away, swallowing hard. Abhir wasn't making this any easier, she turns to him and cups his cheek. He can sense that she's upset so he comes closer to her and hugs her. he doesn't know why, but he feels that he needs to tell her that he loves her, "i love you mumma"

"i love you too meri jaan" She pulls away and presses a firm kiss to his forehead. She motions him to sit on her lap near the windowsill in her room. "Abhir i have to tell you something and i need you to be mumma's strong boy"

"Mumma.." He turns to her and she can tell he's scared. 

"Listen to me, what I tell you might scare you but I need you to stay hopeful" She cups his cheek, "I haven't been feeling the best recently and when I went to the doctor they say I have a problem. It can be cured with a few side-effects or I might... I might not be ali-

"Mumma you can't leave me" Abhir sobs into her chest. His grip tightens on her as if his life depends on it. He understood her next phrase and was desperate for her to console him and tell him, he was wrong. "Please mumma please"

"Abhir.." Akshara swallows her sob, trying very hard to hold herself together for his sake. "I'll never leave you and I'll always-"

"I know you'll always be in my heart but i don't only want that" He cries, "I want you here with me. Please tell me this isn't true"

Her heart breaks at his innocent request, his small heart could only handle enough grief and she was scared she was breaking him. "Abhir, I can't promise anything"

"This isn't true" He sits up, "I don't believe you, You're lying to me. If this is about your divorce, I don't care mumma. I only love you the most, I need you. I'll always stay with you only"

"It isn't about that, abhir. I'm actually diagnosed" she wipes his tears away, it hurt her so much to see him like this. 

"Then tell docman, he will save you!" Abhir says and he has hope in his voice, "he always saves everyone"

"I know, and he knows about me too and is going to help. But the chances are up to god, if anything happens it will never be the doctor's fault" She tells him, and a fresh batch of tears fill his eyes. It was all very overwhelming for him, he couldn't bear the news that his mumma wouldn't be with him or even the fact that she was ill.