Sometimes I feel like I owe Jatp everything because of everything it's done for me.
I feel like I've forgotten what I really means to me and how it felt the first time when I watched it. Now I can't watch it. Every time I think I'm finally ready to rewatch it, I can't. And I don't wanna let go of Jatp because it'll always mean so much to me and I think about that a lot. But it's gotten to the point where I can't watch the show or listen to the music without feeling an empty whole in my heart.
Every time Unsaid Emily comes up on my TikTok I mute my phone right away. I can't stand to listen to it anymore not because of the tears that threaten to fall but the emptiness I feel knowing we'll never get Jatp back, the general sadness of the song, how it relates to me, and how we'll never get any other back story for any of the other characters.
I still make fanfics and edits and do all these things because it's my only way of holding on. I don't watch the show anymore or listen to the music. The only thing I can do is make edits and write fanfic and even sometimes that becomes hard.
I want to go back.
Go back to how it was before all the crazy. Before it was canceled, before just everything.
Jatp has given me so much. And it introduced me to Jeremy's music that I have the same insane obsession with and I wouldn't have found his music if it weren't for Jatp.
I've been watching adventure time and honestly it's ALOT better than I thought it was gonna be and it gets really plot driven which I wasn't expecting. I never would have wanted to watch adventure time if it weren't for Jeremy and I wouldn't even know who he is if it weren't for Jatp.
Jatp has done so much it even indirectly impacted my life sorta like a domino effect. I even wrote an essay about it for school.
I can only dream of the day I watch Jatp again and it feel like I did the first time.
When this show got canceled it really was like going through the five stages of grief and it still feels like that. Before watching the show I had lost my mom and then when I found the show I guess it was a distraction from that grief I felt from losing my mom and I never properly dealt with my feelings. Then Jatp was canceled and it was like I was forced into the depression stage of grief for two things at once.
Netflix will never understand the impact this show had and the pain they caused by taking it away. And it sucks because they'll never truly understand how badly it effected us fantoms when they canceled it.
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Jatp one shots 2
FanfictionI ran out of room on my other one shots, so here's a whole new book that I'll continue to update with more Julie and the Phantoms stories What I do a lot of *sunset curve friendship stuff *Luke Alex Reggie and Julie friendship *a lot of Reggie c...
