Love Never Disappears.

Chapter 21: The day before

Hi, hope your all having an amazing day! sorry guys I've been AWOL with my chapters. University has started which is a bit hectic. This chapter is a long one! Hope you enjoy it!

A few days later, was the day before Erin had to Start her chemo rotations. She was getting really agitated staying at home so.... In a way jay was hovering her way too much, he wouldn't allow her to lift as much as her own finger. He would make her go for walks most days.. she would get annoyed cause he would push her and she hated that. But she knew why he was doing that because he was concerned about her, she saw it every minute that she would wheeze if she slightly moved.

But the gang would come every now and then to come see her and he would see her laugh and Ruzeks witty or remark and jay swears down that his heart would melt every time, he heard her laugh and he saw that beautiful smile that always brought her dimples out and the fact that she always had a comeback if Ruzek said said anything with the big mouth of hers.

Jay was currently out picking up some grocery's before taking her down to the precinct. So Erin was paitently waiting for jay to come so she decided to know more about her health. And then it clicked on, what if she could never get pregnant? She researched it, and it had come up with shocking results. It was a 50/50 percent chance. She never thought about having kids before but then jay came along and it made her think that having kids is not a bad idea, the only reason she ever thought that it was a bad idea was because of her biological mother, Bunny Fletcher. She was never a good mother to begin with therefore her thinking she had gotten that trait with her. She didn't even hear the door open, as she was just sat there in daze. A hand fell on her  shoulder and she startled. She looked up and saw jay stood there.

' what's happend Er' he asked worriedly, as she had startled towards him touching her.

' nothing' she spoke as she quickly shit her laptop and shrugged it off, but jay knew something was up.

He walked around the couch and sat wise her, he slowly grabbed her hand and made her look at up, but her eyes were still gazed down. He slowly lifted her chin up.

' what did we say Erin? That we will be open and honest with each other no matter what, no matter how horrible and messy it is.. remember?' He asked as he raised his eyebrows and Erin sighed as she saw that that look on his face.

' I was thinking.... I'm never going to be able to give you kids... a-and I know how much you have wanted kids' she said as tears slipped through her eyes and saw did a sob. His heart broke as he saw what was happening, he knew that there would be less chances and he would be happy with her even if they didn't have kids.

' er-'

' no jay' she pulled back her hand and stood up the couch and moved away from  him.  Which had shocked him a lot.

' you should just leave me now  ... b-because I can't give you something that you clearly want in the near future or any time soon, I'm sure there are plenty of women out there that will happily be able to have babies in which you w-want' her voiced cracked as she spoke. And he tilted his head towards her and stood up and walked towards her.

' jay Im giving you an out... I won't be angry with you... I understand' she said as she looked down. He walked towards her and grabbed her hands, she tried to resist them but he had to hold her hands in order for him to talk.

' I don't care if you don't give me any children.... I really don't. All I care about is being with you.. that is more than enlightening. No children is ever going to fill a spot in my heart the way you do.. never in my whole entire life. I don't want you thinking that your ruining my life just cause you can't be pregnant .. cause guess what your not. You make my life every more fulfilled than it ever was Before.. I chose to stay before and I'm choosing to stay now' he spoke and wiped her tears away. She quickly grabbed him into a hug and hugged him tightly. He leaned his chin on her head.