The Look Of Knowledge

7. Really

Mika

We were back backstage, security let Julian pass when they saw his face.

"She's with me" he said putting his arm around my shoulder.

It was late and the festival was almost over but I had lost all interest in going back to the field. These guys were way too much fun and I was having a blast. I only wished Jared was here with me, he really liked this band.

"Alright guys, we should get going to the party. There's gonna be a lot of transit when Aerosmith finishes their set" Richard (their manager's assistant) said putting a backpack on his shoulder.

"Yeah man! I heard Liv Tyler's gonna be there..." Nick said glancing at Nikolai making him blush like a tomato, then he turned to me. "He's got a fucking crush on her since like forever" he whispered.

"I thought we weren't going today" Julian said.

"There's gonna be a lot of press, Jules. We have to go today" Their manager Ryan said. Julian sighed and looked at me. "Sorry, uhh... do you mind co-"

"It's alright, dude. I can find another ride, it's cool." I said honestly.

"No, um, I was gonna tell you to come to the party with us... If you want obviously" He said looking kind of shy. It was really sweet.

"YES! Come on, it will be fun!" Fab said jumping on my back, which made me tremble and fall. I bursted out laughing.

"Alright man! as long as you do tequila shots with me" I told Fab. He stood up and offered me his hand to help me up.

"It will be a huge honor" he said lowering his voice.

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We got into their van. Richard was on the wheel, next to Ryan who was on the passenger's seat. I was behind in the middle of Nick and Albert, they were competing on who could bride my hair better. And on the last row was Fab, who sat on Julian's lap and Nikolai sitting on top of some bags.

"Dude, stop! You're taking hair from my side!" Nick shouted at Albert slapping his hand, which he returned doing the same. Yes I was in the middle of that mess.

"Kids, stop fighting. You're gonna hurt the girl" Richard said looking at me from the mirror. I smiled, he was really cute.

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"Ok, Moretti, calm down" Albert told Fab when he was excitedly telling everyone Drew Barrymore waved at him.

"I love her man! She was the cutest little girl in E.T."

"Alright, crew, we meet right here at 3:30am. No more, we gotta be at the festival again at 12:15 to do a few interviews with NME. Y'all got it?" Ryan said. "Casablancas, I got you a watch just in case you 'break your phone' again. No excuses this time. Alright have fun." They nodded and scattered around.

Albert and I were drinking on the open bar when we spotted Steven Tyler.

"Dude how the fuck did he get here before us?" I told him.

"Private jet, obviously. We're gonna have one once we stop wasting all our money on beer and shit, y'know what I mean?" Albert said still staring at Steven.

"Yeeeah, notgonnahappen..." I mocked him and we laughed.

"Girl, I'm already too drunk" he said after a few shots of I don't know what.

"I'm good, my libber is made of steel" I stated. Fab came to us and ordered 6 tequila shots.

"Okay.." He began handing me 3 of them. The barman gave us lemon slices and salt. "At the count of 3?" He asked putting salt on my hand and his. I nodded.

"1, 2, 3... Go!" We said at unison.

And that's about it. The last sober thing I did that night.

Julian

I sat on a blue velvet couch drinking beer until 1:30am. People came, talked to me as I pretended to listen and then went away. Until this girl sat next to me and puked all over, so I stood up and left. A velvet couch on a party filled with drunk people, including myself. Good idea? Not so much.

I started walking around, always making sure I had some booze in my hand. I saw Fab dancing with Drew Barrymore, Nikolai was sitting on a corner wearing his hoodie making Albert company whom was passed out next to him. I thought I saw Nick and Mika talking so I joined them.

"Hey man, how's it going?" Nick said hitting his blunt.

"Great" I said sarcastically, but I'm sure he didn't quite get that, Mika did and gave me a worried look.

Mika

"You look pale, I'll bring you some water" I said. He walked pass me saying he was fine and clumsily tripped but luckily Nick grabbed his arm so he wouldn't fall.

"Guys you're wasted, go sit somewhere" He said laughing and walked away.

"C'mon," I said putting his arm around my neck. He glared at me.

I took him to the sticky floored ladies room and some girl in a multicolor dress stared at me, like I fucking cared.
I opened the sink and washed his face to cool him off.

"Better?" I asked closing it. He shrugged.

"I need to...sit" he said sitting right there on the floor.

"We can't stay here Jules, it's the ladies' room, let's go" I ordered. He just hid his face behind his knees.

"Do you need to throw up?" I asked concerned, still not feeling so good myself. He shook his head. I kneeled down next to him and stroked his back softly, not sure if he was able to feel it due to his leather jacket.

"Let's go," I said and stood up, feeling my head spin. "I'll take you to the van" he took my hand and we exited the room.

We walked past through all the crowd and when I spotted Ryan on the way I made him signs to tell him where we were going. There was a few red lights and really loud music, I saw Julian's eyes squint on every beat of the drums as we passed near the amplifiers.

It's was way too chilly outside. I managed to get Julian on the van and he lied down curling up into a ball. Then I made sure he was fine and closed the door to get back upstairs.

I heard my name weakly so I turned around and saw Julian staring at me through the window. It was really cute, he looked like a puppy so I came back and opened the door, not being able to hold back a light chuckle.

"What's up?" I asked. He made space for me so I could get in, so I did and sat by his side, closing the door behind me. He stared at me in a strange way I didn't quite get. He approached to me and kissed my lips, his slightly parted, then he pulled back to look at me. I knew I was blushing and it made me nervous, so I kind of chuckled. 'Cause that's what I do. I fucking laugh when I'm fucking nervous. He smiled widely and looked down ashamed, then he kissed my shoulder softly and stroked my arm, pushing his body onto mine.

"Easy" I said running my fingers through his hair, making him pull back and look at me again. "Here, come on" I said laying on the seat as if it was a bed and making room for him. He lied down too and slipped his arm between mine and my hips, curling it around my waist.

We were in front of each other and his eyes were widely opened but our minds were in a total haze. I hid his hair behind his ear and stroked his back until he fell asleep.

Then I closed my eyes trying to do the same but every fucking time I closed them my head would start spinning and I'd think about what just happened, because, really, what the fuck just happened,

Right?

Well fuck it, we won't remember it tomorrow.

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Im sorry this is probably a terrible chapter, i didn't even check it. I'm crashing at a friend's house tonight and she's snoring and its fucking annoying i want to throw something at her, but whatever the point is i cant concentrate so much lol

Thank you for reading guys and your comments make my days :) x

Ps: be patient, soon you'll understand ;)