Is It Too Late To Say Sorry? 21+ J.Jk

13.

Jungkook Pov

"Raina, why don't you go to the cafe while I'll be with OUR son" I said with a mischievous smile.

All she did was chuckled... And I knew it was fake.

Raina is just like me... We don't take no shit and I can read her like a fucking book. You would think that she was my sister cause of all the similarities.

"Ah no, I'll stay with MY son and you go to the cafe. You friends are there waiting for you" she said with a fake smile as well.

I clench my fist and my Jaw and all I saw red. I was that fucking pissed off.

It was a stare off between us.

And I knew she was going to win regardless but I'd never back down.

Leave! I mouthed to her

Fuck off!  Raina mouthed back

I ignored her like she wasn't even there
She really hates me... Doesn't she?

Raina just sat right next to Ji-Ho like I wasn't there either.

As I watch her run her fingers through Ji-Ho's hair. I just couldn't stop looking at her. She was so beautiful.

Why the fuck did I hurt her back then? No wonder why she said to stay away from our son. Cause all I do is cause people pain.

When we started dating, I was a major Fuckboy. Fucked girls left and right, played with their hearts, made them cry everything you can imagine. But Raina, she was the leader of the cheerleading squad. Most popular girl ever. We hooked up every chance we got back then. I started feeling shit for her that I knew I would ever feel. She drove me crazy. Not just from her body but her personality as well. There was just something so beautiful about her. One day, I went to her house and we hooked up but then got to know each other. We liked the same things and I was falling hard for her. Which I told her and that's how we started dating. Let's just say we were the power couple of Seoul Grace High school. Through our whole relationship, I did some fucked up shit. I would go to parties and fuck when I can when I was drunk. I told her and she was pissed but forgave me. I made a promise to her that I'd never do it again. But I broke that over and over again. I never really could hold a promise. But she forgave me every single time cause she was so deeply in love with me. It was a routine with me. Even at school I kissed girls. And I promised her again and told her I'd never do it. I broke that. Promise after promise I broke.

During school, I auditioned at different companies cause I wanted to be a singer. But no one accepted me. Until our one year anniversary, I made a romantic dinner for us.  She was going to say something but a call interrupted her. And that's when Bang PD called me. I was going to tell her but She looked upset and walked away. I was confused at first. Didn't know what the fuck happened..and at this time we did live together. I didn't go upstairs at all at first. I wanted her to cool down and maybe when she was fine we could talk. That didn't happen. I waited and waited for her and nothing happened. So I made my decision without telling her. Being as quiet as I can and grabbed the suitcase in the closet. I packed up all my clothes and toiletries and left. I didn't even write her a note to say goodbye. Like she has said multiple times I picked my career over her. And it was true.

And I'm fucking stupid for doing that to her. If I didn't do that shit, we would be fine right now. A loving couple, maybe married by now. Holding each other, kissing, doing everything together. Even being next to each other talking to our son right now.

It's all my fault.

When she pulled me away from Ji-Ho to go talk. She cursed me out and it made me fucking pissed. Raina was never like this. The hatred she had for me over the years poured out of her mouth without even catching a breath. What hurt the most was her saying that they didn't need me. That she was the mother and the father. And to stay away from them. Cause she knows what I do and can't hold a promise. Raina knows what kind of person I am. She doesn't trust me. Which I wouldn't trust myself too.The hurt in her eyes made me feel awful.

I caused it all.

I was angry.. her words playing over and over in my head. After the guys talked to me in the waiting room, I was heading to Ji-Ho's room. I stood at his door and I saw Raina's aunt with him. To be honest, I never liked her aunt. She was a bitch! Said what she felt. When I saw her there, I couldn't even step in the room. If Raina was in there with her then I'd walk in. So I walked away and went to the cafe with the guys for about an hour. Raina should be back in the room by now so I said goodbye to them and headed to the store in the hospital. Grabbing a balloon, a teddy bear and roses. By the time I got back to his room it was about 2 or 3 hours. That's when her aunt said what she said. Which pissed me off even more. And that made me see red. The way her aunt hit my shoulder when she walked out I wanted to snap at her right then and there.

My anger didn't go away it...it got  stronger by the minute. Raina was pissed off and I could see and feel it. The things I said and mouthed to her was the truth. But again she didn't back down and said something back to me. We stared at each other and I gave up afterwards.

It's true, it's her son... Not mine. Even if I created it with her. It's her's. She was there through it all and I wasn't. So I really can't claim him as ours. I wasn't going to give up though. I still was going to hurt Ji-Ho regardless. And she knows it.

One way or another I'm going to make things right.

I just don't know when