Is It Too Late To Say Sorry? 21+ J.Jk

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After the little coffee date with Chris, I felt a little bit better. But, I had an uneasy feeling in my chest. Seeing Jungkook with another girl brought a sharp pain to my heart. It made me think the only reason he said all those sweet words was just to get into my pants. Or maybe not.

I keep telling myself that I want him out of my life and away from Ji-Ho and all this stuff. In reality, I want him to stay. My heart still beats for him. I haven't stopped loving him. For the past couple months it has been nothing but stressful. Everything between us is like up and down. I just wish our relationship was the same from years ago

It's just constant lies and promises. How can 8 truly believe him now? Everyone is telling me to move on but I just can't. My heart won't allow it. Even Chris said he wants to give our relationship another chance. And I declined him. Like I said before, I only attract assholes and not loyal ones.

Arriving back at the cafe where the meeting was held, I didn't see any sign of Hans or Jennie. Maybe they are still on their break? Something caught my eye though. It wasn't a client either. Two cups of coffee right in front of him. A croissant as well.

All covered in black once again his eyes looking elsewhere but not at his phone. How did Jungkook find me here? It's like he could hear my thoughts and look over at me. I could tell he was smiling just how his eyes squinted together.

He walked close to me and led me to the table and handed me the coffee.

"I got you coffee just the way you like it. And a croissant with banana and Nutella. Your favorite!" He said smiling

Jungkook remembered...

"What are you doing here? How did you find me?" I asked

"I came to see you. Your clients came back and asked who I was. I told them I was just a friend of yours. They told me to tell you that there was an emergency and it was with her family . I asked if she needed help with transportation or anything and they kindly said no. How did I find you? It was from Mina" he said.

Figures... Mina can't keep her mouth shut.

"Well, thank you for the coffee and the croissant. I really appreciate it" I said

Jungkook smiled again and I could tell he wanted to hold my hand. But, he pulled it back.

"Look, I'm sorry about yesterday. I was trying to explain but you didn't let me. That wasn't just a random girl Raina. That was my sister Hannah. She just came back with my nephew because her husband cheated on her. She texted me while I was practicing and said she wanted to meet up" he said.

Shit I feel stupid... Fuck I should've let him explain. But I jumped the gun and accused.

"I'm sorry Jungkook. I didn't know. It just hurt seeing you with another girl after what we shared the other night. I thought I was being used" I said

Now, Jungkook grabbed my hand and rubbed the back of it.

"Raina, everything I said to you the other night I meant every single word. Don't feel like I'm using you. Cause I changed.. I would never do that again. I made the mistake once and I still regret it. I'm choosing you both over my career now. I can give a flying fuck about BTS. I'd rather be with my family. I'm not even paying attention with the guys and I overheard that they are going to maybe let me go. I would rather them do that... Then keep me around. I want you and Ji-Ho. You don't know how much I fucking love you Raina. I will fucking do anything for you. I...I already moved out of the dorm and I um living back at my parents house back in busan. Just to give myself time to think and wait for them to give me the heads up that I'm done. Sort of tried to look for colleges to get me a better job if I get kicked out of BTS. But, we will see how that goes" he said teary eyed.

I was speechless I didn't know what to say. College? Getting kicked out of BTS? Moved out? And this all happened because of me. If we didn't cross paths none of this would have happened.

"J-Jungkook I'm so sorry" I said wiping the tears

Jungkook's hand was still on top of mine. His eyes glistened from the tears and happiness. We just stared at each other. His eyes only showed love and the truth. That I haven't seen in a while.

Don't believe him!! He is lying!

If you believe him, you're the biggest dummy in the world. Don't fall in his trap!

I shook my head to get those thoughts out of my mind. But they just kept repeating. Which made me pull my hand away from him. Leaving Jungkook confused.

It was like Jungkook could read my mind.

"I'm telling the truth Raina! I'm not lying. Please" he said worriedly.

I was conflicted once again. He pulled his mask down and I said his wide doe eyes, pouting, tears brimming in his eyes. Begging me to believe him. But, I just couldn't.

"I-I'm sorry Jungkook... I..I c--"

He cut me off

"I'll show you angel. I'll prove to you that I'm not lying. I want to be with you... Unless, someone else has claimed you" he said

Should I lie and said I'm taking? Hit him where it hurts. Or do I give him a shot?
Fuck... Why does he have to make things so difficult.

What would you do if you were in my situation?

Cause I can't figure it out...