Is It Too Late To Say Sorry? 21+ J.Jk

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Jungkook Pov

"Hello Raina" I growled

Raina's eyes looked at me and her mouth hit the floor. Does she really think I didn't hear their conversation? Did she actually really think I was sleeping? And now she has the audacity to go on a 'date' with her ex boyfriend?

"O-Oh J-Jungkook! Your awake" she said nervously

"Who was that?" He asked with my arms crossed

She didn't answer me and she started tapping on her keyboard again. Raina didn't answer me and it pissed me off. So she rather go out for lunch with the guy that hurt her and didn't like my son. Then work on us?

I closed the laptop and kept staring at her.

"Why would you do that???? I was emailing a client!!!" She said angrily

"I don't fucking care! Who was on the phone with you?" I asked

"Why does it matter? I'm allowed to do what I want Jungkook. I don't need you breathing down my neck and asking me questions" she said

"Oh really? Then I can do the exact same thing. Since that's how it's going to be" I said

Raina just looked at me and I could feel the heat radiating off her body. I knew she wouldn't have liked what I said. It hit a nerve. Which that phone call did to me.

"It was Bangchan okay!" She said

"Oh, the one that got your pregnant and broke up with you and you lost the baby? Hmm interesting" I said

"Oh please, you probably did the exact same thing. Got one of you hook ups pregnant and you didn't want it. So I don't want to hear it. Once a playboy always a playboy" she said

Did she really just call me a fucking playboy? Wow, thinking of me that low.

"Tsk, Im far from a playboy babygirl. If I was, I'd wouldn't be trying my fucking hardest to get you back. I don't do that baby bullshit anymore." I said

She just rolled her eyes and opened the laptop once again which I closed on her again. Now, I saw the anger in her eyes.

"Will you stop fucking doing that? I have a huge wedding to prepare and I need it done asap. I don't have time to for you baby jealousy shit Jungkook" she said

I couldn't believe that she was saying all this shit in front of my face with no expression. It's like she didn't even care about my feelings. Like she doesn't love me anymore.

"Okay whatever Raina. If that's how it's going to be than so be it. I'm trying my fucking hardest to work things out between us. Making everything right and fixing all my mistakes. But your not seeing it. You rather go out with the fucking guy who destroyed you. I'd never did that" I yelled

"Ha! You didn't do that? Really? Wow, your so full of yourself Jungkook" she said

Shit, she is right. I did the same thing 5 years ago when I picked my career over her. I'm a hypocrite. But why doesn't she see that I'm pouring all my love to her. What's the point of all this when she just doesn't want me?

"This is what I said before. One of us is going to get hurt if we keep progressing. I rather prepare myself now before I becomes serious. 2 months we tried and look what happens! Caught you cheating right there and then on TV. And your going to lie to my face and say you want to try and work things out? See I don't need this childish shit in my life. I have so much going for me. And I don't need extra shit on my plate. This is why I rather us be friends then anything more. You can still see your son. But us? It will never work. You're still not going to be there even if you say you are. You are just going to break promises! That's why I never trusted you and til this day I still fucking don't. You got 3 strikes and you broke each one. Just like Lucas! It's like I fucking attract the shitty men. I can't find the one that will make me happy, not hurt me, sweep me off my feet. My prince charming! This is the reason why I stopped dating after Bangchan. But it had to be all topsy turvy when you had to walk back into my life!!!! I was totally fine by myself without any of you dickheads! I'm the fucking idiot for thinking you'd change. It's going to be the same shit all over again. And I'm not going to deal with it anymore..so you either shape the fuck up, chill with your jealous fucking shit, and actual be an adult not this childish prick." She yelled

I just stared at her with sadness in my eyes. I didn't know what to say or do at this moment. Her words stabbed my heart over and over again. Is this what she really thinks?

Tears brimmed in my eyes and I just turned around and walked back into my bed. My back turned on her as I tried to surpress the tears that were falling. It was so hard to sound like I was crying but it worked. I cried myself to sleep not even saying a single word to her. I didn't know what to say or do is this situation right now.

After it felt like hours, I woke up and looked around the whole room. The only one that was in here was Yoongi. He was too busy on his phone to even noticed I was awake.

"Hyung?" I asked

Yoongi looked up and smiled and pulled a chair over to my bed. He noticed my eyes and nose were red and his smile faded. Like he didn't even know what to say.

"W-where 's Raina?" I asked

He looked in my eyes and sighed.

With all my drama shit has been stressing my members as well.

Jimin and Raina hating each other...

Jin upset with me...

Taehyung and Hoseok hurting for me...

Namjoon is trying to be the calmest one out of all of us. But I can tell he is fed up...

And Yoongi trying to not get involved. Which I think he's the smartest one out of every one. He minds his own business and doesn't say a single word.

"She went home" he said

I looked at him trying to read his eyes. But there was sadness in the.

I'm even putting stress on him.

"W-when?" I asked as the tears were falling down my cheeks.

He sighed and patted my hand

"An hour ago. She heard you crying and then when you fell asleep. She went home. I don't think she's coming back Kook" he said

And that's when my chest tightened and I cried harder than ever. I screamed so loud that he got startled. The pain it hurt so fucking bad. It felt like my heart was getting ripped out of my chest.

I'm loosing her and I'm not trying hard enough and it's because ..

It's my fault.