Is It Too Late To Say Sorry? 21+ J.Jk

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Jungkook pov

Things I think have been going well. Actually great! I've been spending more time with my family. Wow, that sounds weird. Ji-Ho is definitely a handful. He reminds me of how I was when I was little. Finding out a lot of his conditions breaks my heart. The doctor told me the other day that he was a miracle and wasn't supposed to live. Which killed me. But, he's a strong kid and can beat anything. So much determination in that little boy.

Raina and I have gotten really close. Yes, we have occasionally fucked here and there. That is it though. There's no relationship or label on us. I hate it though. I love her to death and would do anything for us to be together. It's just not going to happen any time soon. She still doesn't trust me. I don't think it would escalate to something more between us. Which I want so badly.

She finally went back to work and it worries me like crazy. I don't want nothing to happen to her again. I wouldn't know what to do. Mr. Song told me who it was and I couldn't fucking believe it. Like how can someone I loved and always been there for could do this.

And you're not going to believe who it was.

My sister Hannah and our two cousins.

Julie and Tonya.

I thought they liked Raina... They did everything together back then. But it was all an act. Fake. They never liked her. They wanted to kill her so she could be free from me. And I blamed Jimin. I'm so fucking stupid. He had nothing to do with this and I yelled at him. Yes, the only reason why I accused him was because him and Raina butt heads constantly. It was just a suspicion. I was wrong.

My sister and cousins ran away and the police is tracking them. They are nowhere to be found. It's funny, they didn't even get hurt in the accident. Our parents even contacted me and apologized for her and my cousins actions. They never had a problem with Raina. Not that I'm aware of though. They couldve faked it just like Hannah did. But I'm not too sure.

Til this day, I look out for Raina. Texting and calling her to make sure she's okay. Dropping her off at work and even picking her up. Which she yells at me all the time for it. But I don't care. She's the mother of my child and the love of my life. I'll do anything for her.

The guys have been with her as well. Mostly Jin thought since he's dating her sister Mina. When Jin told me at the hospital that Mina lost the baby I felt so bad for him. He's been looking forward to being a father. And it wasnt Mina's fault. It was just all the stress with everything is happening. I guess it wasn't the right time for them. They way he broke down in the hospital, I haven't seen him like that before. It really did kill me.

The other night, Raina and I sat down talking. Ji-Ho was sound asleep so it easy for us to be alone without disruptions.

I told her I want us to try our relationship again. That I love her and Ji-Ho so much and don't want to be away from them. I don't want to live without her. She smiled and choked up but it disappeared instantly. Raina told me that she forgives me to the instinct. Not fully thought. I told her sorry countless of times but she doesn't believe me. She said she knows I'll eventually do it again. Which I denied. Again, she disagreed. Raina said she's not ready to jump into a relationship yet and needs time to herself. Letting me know that I can date who I want and all. I told her no that I only want her. I promised her. She didn't believe me. I really did damage to her heart. I even said too her 'is it really to late?' and she nodded her head.

So, here I am at the bar with the guys. I don't know how much I drank but I'm drunk as fuck. Namjoon tried cutting me back for the drinking but I didn't want to stop. This was my way of numbing my pain.

He patted my back and talked to me a bit. I just couldn't listen to him. My whole mind was on Raina. She's the only girl I want. There's no one else that I want to be with. He told me when the time comes around she would be back in my life and be mine again. It's just not now... Not the right time.

Yoongi said since im single to go get laid and meet a new girl.

I can't...

A bunch of girls came over to us and started talking to me. One of the girls looked oddly familiar to me. She knew my name and all and was flirty. Until it clicked. It was my hook up I had after I left Raina to work at Hybe.

Her name was Crystal.

We did hit it off when I first met her. The sex was great but not that great. The whole time I thought about Raina.

Crystal and I were catching up and all. We kept drinking and I pulled her to the dance floor. Yes, me and crystal has this connection but it's not what me and Raina have. It's different. At first, I did have feelings for Crystal. It just faded away when raina walked into Hybe that day. Then everything was Raina. Crystal was nothing to me anymore.

Shit, Crystal has this effect on me. She does get me hard but not now Raina does. We were dancing on the floor. Touching each other and making out. It looks like we were going to fuck on the dance floor. She took my hand and we were going to go to the room that allows people to have sex in. We were close to the room, I held her up against the wall gropping her body and making out like crazy.

I kicked the door opened and our lips were still locked. Closing the door with my foot and gently throwing crystal on the bed. She started taking her clothes off and she even removed my shirt and pants. I got on top of her and my lips never left hers. Without me knowing my boxers came off.

It felt wrong...

Really wrong...

Crystal was attacking my neck and grabbing my dick. Jerking me off as I was sucking her breast. But I moaned something that ended this all.

"Mmm Raina... Fuck that feels good baby"

And I'm glad it did..

I couldn't take it any farther with crystal.

I wanted Raina.