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🍂29:Dread And Despair🍂

(Mentions of abuse and rape )

The feeling of sleeping in your lover's arms is truly very beautiful and euphoric. The comfort that radiates is what makes one's heart flutter and soul be at peace.

However, Namjoon has never experienced that feeling, even though he and Jungkook were in a relationship for 4 years they never slept together, Namjoon never knew the comfort of even lying in his mother or father's arm.
The very first memory of his, is him drowning in a cold river before someone rescued him.
The feeling of cold water in his nose, mouth and lungs was so horrifying that even now he fears going near any kind of water body.
But what if the same feeling of drowning is filling his chest even though he is not near even a drop of water.

There is no warm feeling in his chest, there is just dread and despair that's left in him. The suffocation that he is feeling right now is far worse than the feeling of drowning as Ji-ho takes him again and again, beating him, abusing him and raping him again and again.
Ji-ho stripped Namjoon out of his dignity the moment he stepped in the palace of Dernia, till now he has done the same thing again and again but still the feeling of ultimate defeat intensifies by thousand times for Namjoon.
He just feels so weak, so so weak that he is not even capable of saving himself from this monster of a human, Ji-ho.

" Your body deserves to be carved with red" Ji-ho grits and bites Namjoon lips hard making them bleed.
The force of his thrusts making Namjoon gasp in pain.
"Please, stop it hurts" Namjoon pleads as he thrashes on the soft bed, his whole body bloody and bruished.

"Aww baby, just one more time" Ji-ho coos in his ears as if he hasn't been torturing Namjoon from past 6 hours.

"H-hurts, k-kookie" Namjoon whispers as tears after tears fall out his swollen eyes. All he can do is just remember his lover's face to make himself calm down just a little bit.

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Namjoon finally takes a breath when he feels that Ji-ho has slept beside him on the other side of the bed.
He feels cold, so cold. After raping Namjoon for God knows how many hours, he left Namjoon even without a comforter to cover him, he greedily took the only comforter entirely for himself.

Namjoon glances outside out of the window still lying in his place on the bed.
It's a cloudy night, forget about the moon not even a star is visible in the sky, just endless dark abyss like night is all he can see.
He feels disgusted in his own skin, it feels like his body is burning in hell fire from inside and buckets of cold water are being poured on the outside.
He is shivering and sweating at the same time.
He wants to walk but he doesn't have the energy to, he wants to run but he doesn't have the willpower to, in his entire life Namjoon have never felt so helpless, what did he ever do to suffer like this.
First his family got kidnapped and in order to save them he left his lover and now he gets raped almost everyday.
Is god really trying to take everything away from him and leave him with just this eternal sadness and loneliness.

He can't breath anymore, his whole body is in excruciating pain and his heart is beating at such a fast pace that it hurts.
He can't! he has to get away from here.
He has to somehow save his family and leave Dernia.
But how? He doesn't know, should he kill Ji-ho. He can easily do that the said man is lying defenseless on the bed.
Namjoon looks at him and contemplates.
No he can't, Ji-ho's sister will immediately find out what happened and kill his entire family. And even if he somehow kills Ji-ho and manages to save his family he will never be able to leave Dernia.

Namjoon cries loudly at the thought that he can never escape this hell hole untill someone saves him and his family.
But who will save him, the only person who knows about his existence is Jungkook and Namjoon made him believe that he never loved him, the said man is never going to look for him. Then Who, who will save him.