Broken Secrets (gxg)

Bonus Chapter : Forgiveness

Elliott's POV

I didn't think that I could be in a hospital again for this long. I was surprised that I was able to stay in the hospital for as long as I did when Sterling was recovering. Being here for twice as long is something I never expected.

Due to all my injuries I had to stay in the hospital for three weeks. I did everything that the doctors told me to do in order to leave as quickly as possible. It also helped that Sterling and her parents were here to help and keep me company. Me and Sterling haven't talked about how we are going to work on things. I think both of us are still unsure how to approach things. Being injured also doesn't help.

Today I finally get to go home, well not home, I would actually need a home to do that. But I get to go to an apartment. Drew and Blair got me an apartment not too far from their house. They wanted me to stay at their house, but I didn't think it was a good idea. I know that although they have forgiven me Sterling and her siblings haven't. I want to respect their space. This way I will not be intruding, but also close enough in case any of them need me.

"You couldn't get an apartment on the first floor?" Sterling asks her ma while she helps me up the steps.

"This was the only one available" Drew answers.

"And the rest were ugly. I almost bought the place just so I could renovate it" Blair replies.

"It's okay. I only need a pillow and a blanket" I don't want to feel like a burden to them. Especially not after everything I have done.

"Don't be ridiculous Elliott" Sterling comments.

We continue to walk up the stairs. Drew unlocks the door. They furnished the apartment for me. Sterling helps me sit down on the couch.

"Are you hungry?" Blair asks me.

"No. I'm just tired. But I can make you all food is you are hungry" I begin to sit up but am pushed back by Sterling.

"Elliott stop" Sterling tells me. She turns to her moms, "Can you give us a second?" they nod their heads and leave the apartment.

"I'm sorry" I tell her before she can talk.

"Elliott" she pauses, "I know that you are trying to not be a burden or doing what you can to prove that you are trying, but right now you need to stop. You are still recovering. You are not a burden. You can be helpful after you are at least ninety percent okay"

"I'm sorry I'll stop"

"And stop saying sorry"

"Okay, so-" I stop realizing that I was about to say sorry again.

"There is something else I wanted to talk to you about" she looks sad.

"Yeah?"

"I can't do this" her eyes start to get watery. Worry hits me. What does she mean by this?

"I thought that I could be here to take care of you and I want to, but I can't. It's still too hard" the tears slowly fall. "I think that I need to be on my own to process all this before we can even think about processing things together"

"I understand" I gently wipe the tears from her face. "I will be waiting for however long you need"

"My moms will be checking in on you everyday. I already spoke with them. If you need anything just let them know"

"Okay" I smile softly.

"I'm going to go now" she starts to get up from the couch. I give her a soft smile as she walks towards the door. When she is out of the door my feelings are let out. Now the tears falling are mine.