MHA one shots

Sad Jiro

Today a year ago I lost a friend to suicide and it hurts it does so here's a story...please talk to someone if you're hurting so bad that you want to hurt yourself or commit, my messages should be open to everyone if you need someone to talk to.

⚠️mention of self harm and suicide⚠️

Izuku's pov.
December 12, 3am...I was walking to the kitchen as I heard someone more like Jirou singing
"Summertime sadness I just wanted you to know
That baby, you the best"(summertime sadness-Lana Del Rey). Huh I wonder what that's ab- wait is she sobbing "why him,why couldn't it be me,why'd he'd do it,why did I have to survive and lose him"(honestly I feel that and it's not fun having survivors guilt). Wait did she lose someone- "Tell me, what does it look like in heaven? Is it peaceful? Is it free like they say? Does the sun shine bright forever? Have your fears and your pain gone away?"(dancing in the sky-Dani and lizzy). I have to "Jiro are you ok" i watched her jump out of the seat cause I can tell I  scared her and I  can see her wrist has cuts on them that look new "yea I'm fine" she picks up her things and starts to leave to her dorm. I carefully grabs her wrist "hey I know you're lying but if you don't wanna talk just know I'm here and you shouldn't hold it in to long and also you need to hiding your cutting but you should stop that to its not good either" I let go of her and I walk to the fridge to grab my drink and walked past a shocked Jiro back to my room.

Jiro's pov.
Wait did he hear me, did he also see my wrists. Maybe I should talk to him in the morning since he figured out I'm depressed and wait maybe he's depressed and been through this which is how he knows I was lying and trying to help me. I should sing him some of my songs but I should get some sleep first. Next day, I wake up and see Midoryia and walk up to him and I quietly asked him "Hey Midoryia can we talk in one of our rooms" he looks at me and nods and we went to his room without anyone noticing. "So what's up why'd you wanna talk" he says to me and I look at him nervously and I could feel the tears in my eyes "I-I don't know how to tell you this" I started sobbing, I could feel his arms rap me in a hug and I clutched his shirts and fell. He just sat there with me in his arms til I stopped, 1 hour later, I finally stopped crying and felt tired and was about to fall asleep til Izuku said something "Kyouka since you can't talk to me about it how about you sing it to me" I looked at him shocked and he realized he said my first name "it's ok Izuku you can call me my first name and I'll sing it to you". I got out of his arms and sat across from him and I start singing,
"Tonight the monsters in my head
Are screaming so damn loud
But I built walls so high
So they never even make a sound
It's a mask, it's a lie
It's the only home I've ever known
'Cause being who I really am
Has only left me more alone
I am not okay
And I need you to see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
The reason I keep quiet
With so much at stake
I always feel like a burden, let it silence me
You'll never understand
Why it's so hard to say
I'm not okay
I wish I had a scar
Had a bruise on the surface, any kind of proof
That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse
My life's invisible abuse
I'm either judged or have to hide
The only symptom you can see
Is I don't wanna be alive
I am not okay
And I need you to see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
The reason I keep quiet
With so much at stake
I always feel like a burden, let it silence me
You'll never understand
Why it's so hard to say
I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell
But what if it kills me
If I keep it to myself?
To myself
I am not okay
And I need you to see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
I am not okay
I am not okay
I'm never safe
It's not a phase
If I finally break
Would you still stay?
Tonight the monsters in my head
Are screaming so damn loud" (I'm not okay - citizen soldier) "Kyouka, I understand what you're feeling trust me I do and I can be there for you and we can help each other out, please just don't cut and I won't cut either ok" I look at Izuku so he is the same as me but he has lost someone like I have or tried to do what I did (italics is thinking) "ok Izuku I'll try and I'm here for you but you might wanna know two other things about me" he looks at me confused then realizes that it's not good
"I tried it once before but I didn't get too far
I felt a lot of pain but it didn't stop my heart
And all I really wanted was someone to give a little fuck
But I waited there forever and nobody even looked up
I tried it once before and I think I mighta messed up
I struggled with the veins and I guess I didn't bleed enough
But maybe I'm alive because I didn't really wanna die
But nothing very special ever happens in my life
Take the blade away from me
I am a freak, I am afraid that
All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
I died to be the white ghost
Of the man that I was meant to be
I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut
I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough
And I shoulda told my mother "mom, I love you" like a good son
But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one
Take the blade away from me
I am a freak, I am afraid that
All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
I died to be the white ghost
Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah
I tried it once again and I think I might black out
I shoulda left a letter but I had nothing to write about
My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up
The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked
Take the blade away from me
I am a freak, I am afraid that
All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
I died to be the white ghost
Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah
I tried it once again and I think I went too far
The man that I was meant to be
I cut a little deeper and the pressure stopped my heart
The man that I was meant to be
I couldn't tell my mother "mom, I love you", I'm a bad son
This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one" (ghost-Badflower) I started crying again no one knows that I tried except family and close friends "I tried to take my life last year in October but my mom saved me then not even two months later something happened" I cried more and Izuku pulled me into a hug til I stopped like 30 minutes later I stopped and sat up and looked at him "are you ready for the last song" he nodded and I started singing
"Loving and fighting, accusing, denying
I can't imagine a world with you gone
The joy and the chaos, the demons we're made of
I'd be so lost if you left me alone
You locked yourself in the bathroom
Lying on the floor when I break through
I pull you in to feel your heartbeat
Can you hear me screaming? Please don't leave me
Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you
Let me take your hand, I'll make it right
I swear to love you all my life
Hold on, I still need you
Long endless highway, you're silent beside me
Driving a nightmare I can't escape from
Helplessly praying, the light isn't fading
Hiding the shock and the chill in my bones
They took you away on a table
I pace back and forth as you lay still
They pull you in to feel your heartbeat
Can you hear me screaming? Please don't leave me
Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you
Let me take your hand, I'll make it right
I swear to love you all my life
Hold on, I still need you
I don't wanna let go
I know I'm not that strong
I just wanna hear you
Saying, "Baby, let's go home"
Let's go home
Yeah, I just wanna take you home
Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you" (hold on -Chord Overstreet) I started sobbing again while trying to tell him what happened a year ago today "it's ok Kyouka just breathe and calm down" he pulled me into a hug and  rubbed my back as I did what he said "m-my friend committed suicide a year ago today" I started crying harder "let it out Kyouka I'm here, I'm here" he started rubbing my back again as I just cried into his chest after awhile I fell asleep.

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