Reaper's Lily

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(this part has 2 songs. it's okay if you dont want to listen to them but i believe that they go with this part! late happy christmas y'all and happy reading!! :D )

Liliana's P.O.V:

Looking into his beautiful coal onyx gem eyes, I wrapped my arms around his neck and shoulder to pull him closer. I smiled at him softly, getting a smirk in return. He was on top of me, then he leaned down to kiss the healing wound on my left shoulder. I normally hated people touching me, but with him...it was different. I loved his natural scent of rain from a thunderstorm mixed with the leather that always came off his leather jackets, and the way it would smother me whenever he'd wrap his long around me.

I ran my hands through his long thick black-ink hair, letting out a soft moan as he moved to press his lips softly on my jugular. I turned my head, looking into his eyes, then closed my eyes as he slammed his lips on mine. My hands ran down his arms, feeling all the muscles he had, and I felt him almost trying to melt himself into me. I smiled in between our lips dancing in sync, then broke the kiss to help him take off his black tank top. After nearly ripping mine off my head, I let out a giggle before he went back to attacking my shoulder and neck.

This was the happiest I probably ever felt in a long time. I never wanted this feeling to end. How I wished this moment could freeze and let me stay in here and savoir it. I never felt more normal than right here and now. I broke the kiss, seeing his lips were swollen just like mine, then looked at his tattoos all over his arms.

I stared into his eyes, watching him panting as he was staring into mine, then smiled softly, "I love you...Kaiden."

(^this song is for this part of the chapter ^_^ )

My eyes shot open as I sat up. What the hell kind of dream was that?! I looked around to see that I was in a room with an ugly shade of grey painted on the walls. My clothes were an over-sized thin black long sleeve along with a pair of black athletic leggings. I ripped the sheet off of my lower half, stupidly, with my left arm and fought back a small scream of pain. I held onto my shoulder, mentally kicking my ass to high hell, then the door opened. I looked up to see Kaiden nearly throwing himself onto the floor to sit next to me.

"Are you okay?" Kaiden asked, staring at me with so much worry.

I only nodded, thinking of my dream as I stared at his lips for a split second. I had to tear my eyes away from him as I had found myself looking up at his eyes then downwards. What in the fuck? I wasn't some horny high school girl! Why was I dreaming about him like that when I told myself that this was never going to go any further?! Helping him with this interrogation was priority and not getting laid! Once that was done, I'd look into giving him a clean break with finding a way to break the soulmate bond. He didn't need someone like me in his life, no matter how much I desperately wanted to be in it with all my heart.

"What's got you so messed up?" Kaiden asked, and I refused to look at him.

I shook my head, mumbling, "Nothing."

"Doesn't feel like nothing," Kaiden grunted, then moved to sit next to me.

Slowly, I moved to get on my feet, holding my left shoulder. Kaiden was on his feet before I could look down to stare at him, then he stared into my eyes. My dream flashed in my mind again and I ripped away from his gaze before he could trap me in. The longer I looked at into Kaiden's eyes, the more I felt myself opening up to him. We didn't need my stupid feelings to get in the way of the main thing. We were working together to kill Calvin. After that, I planned on breaking everything off cleanly and going back to my small home to have a good two-hour pity party.

"You want to leave me?" Kaiden asked, and I snapped my head to look at him in shock. Kaiden only gave me a cold stare as he went on, "Is that why you've been avoiding my gaze this whole time? If the soulmate bond could be broken, it would've been done by countless people. Us being together was written into our lives the day we were born, Liliana."

"You don't need me," I started to walk away from him.

Kaiden grabbed my left wrist, yanking me back to him. I stared into his eyes, feeling his emotions in the bond of torment with the idea in his head that I wanted to break the bond. Kaiden's face was that of a statue. Cold, emotionless. Why did my heart break at the sight of this? I felt his agony.

My heart broke more as I blinked back tears. I wanted to desperately just wrap my arms around him and hold him close. I wanted to have him tell me that everything was going to be alright, and this was going to be so helpful. My heart wanted my dream to be true, yet I knew the harsh reality. Love was a bear trap that needed you to rip a limb out of it to get to safety. This was something that I wasn't willing to or mentally able to go through again.

I knew the difference between Calvin and Kaiden were day and night. Calvin always hated what I wore even if it was a short sleeve shirt; Kaiden probably never cared as long as I was comfortable. Calvin loved my long hair and made me keep it down to "hide my scent" from others. Kaiden again didn't care about it and just wanted me to be comfortable. Calvin always forced physical affection on me, even before my symptoms of haphephobia started. Kaiden had kissed me once or twice against my will, but ever since then he'd always waited for me to make the first move. Kaiden was patient, probably way too much with me than I deserved. He'd never thought of beating me or trying to force himself on me.

Another big difference, Kaiden wasn't an undead son of bitch that was hell bent on killing me. If anything, Kaiden kept proving to myself and everyone around us that he was willing to through everything and everyone to keep me protected. Calvin always proved that he didn't care as long as everyone knew that I was his "beloved" and belonged to him. He never treated me as a person like Kaiden had been.

A knock on the bathroom door made me jump up, then Kaiden's voice rang from the other side of the door. He asked, "You okay in there, Lily?"

"Yeah," I tried to control the trembling in my voice but that clearly fell.

I looked in the mirror once more and realized that I'd been in love or fallen even harder in love rather despite my selfish wish to never be in this position again. I let out a weighted sigh and splashed some cold water on my face. I was in love with Kaiden...no matter how much I kept fighting him and myself on it.