Poisonous Desires ♡K. Bakugou x Reader x I. Midoriya♡

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♡♡♡(Y/N) POV♡♡♡

     May. The nearing of summer and better weather. It was a favorite time of mine when I was younger and would take Ukyuu to places to get us out of the house.
     But now?
     Now May is just another month as I'm trying to move forward.
     "Is this her, Aoi?" A man with graying hair asks with a smile as I walk up to the small coffee shop.
     "Yes, it is. My favorite passenger. She and her brother are lovely. The dog, too." Mr. Tanaka says with a smile, making me laugh softly.
     "Kenya Tanaka, a pleasure to meet you, Miss (L/n)! My husband talks very well of you."
     "You're too kind, Sir. I'm not all that great." I remark while shaking the man's hand.
     "Bullshit! You're a wonder." Mr. Tanaka retorts with a scoff.
     "Alrighty, honey, call me when you're done. I'm going to look in my store to pass the time!" Mr. Kenya says before nodding to us and then heading away.
     "His store?"
     "Legos, he loves them."
     "Ah!" I breathe before we head inside the cafe and take a seat.

     We order our drinks before he starts talking. "If I may, why are you patched up, Miss (L/n)?" He asks, worry clear in his tone.
     "Someone wanted revenge on them. Wanted to use me as leverage." I confess with a small shrug. "They said I was there about a week? I didn't really eat or drink because I didn't trust him. But the boys came and saved me. But now I'm swamped in all this crazy paperwork." I finish with a small laugh.
     "Are you alright?"
    "Healing, but I'll be okay. I was told that I'd make a full recovery." I state with a small shake of my head. "I'm just trying to sort myself out. I made up with my brother, thankfully, but I'm just trying to find—" I pause as I try to find the words.
      "Trying to find yourself?" Tanaka asks before I nod a bit defeatedly. "That's nothing to be ashamed of. A lot of us have had years to try to find ourselves. Others don't get much time at all." He claims with a gentle smile. "It can be hard to find who you are. Even harder to find what you want to be. It's no easy feat, hun." He says, laughing gently. "But if anyone could, you sure as hell will."
      "How would I find out who I want to be?" I question as I look into my mug, like the hot beverage could aid my mind. "How long would it take?" I ask worriedly as I look up to him.

      Tanaka takes a deep breath before sipping his coffee. "Well, that entirely depends on you. Because your goals and achievements are all up to you and the path you want to take. It could take some time or even just a moment. Though no matter what happens, you'll know when you find yourself."
       "What—"
      "I can't tell you how you'll feel when you find yourself. I'm not you, Miss (L/n). You'll know it." He chuckles before taking another drink. "If you want some advice, I'd say try to accomplish some goals you have or something you want, within reason, of course." He states before smiling. "You're a strong woman. You can do this."
     "Thank you, Mr. Tanaka. It means more to me than you could know." I say with a smile before we start catching up on things.
     The hour goes by swiftly before Kenya actually has to come get us before the couple ends up late for their granddaughter's birthday party.
     "It was very nice to catch up with you, Miss (L/n). I hope to do it again. Here or elsewhere." The cab driver says with a smile before hugging me. "Stay safe and out of trouble!"
     "I try, but it always seems to find me." I laugh, making the pair share a chuckle before bidding me farewell.

     Who do I want to be?
     I just want to live. To be in a moment. Be happy with the life I've built.
    Have a family that I'll love to be around. To care for Uykuu and watch him continue to grow.
     To have friends who mean the world to me.
     Partners I'd love to grow old with. Partners I can trust with my fragility. Partners that I want to marry and have children with.
      I want the life that I didn't get, and I'm going to make it my own. I think before taking a breath as I step into the courthouse.