What I Want

Chapter Eleven

New York, 23 October 2014

Taylor's P.O.V

The soft pelting of rain on my windows wakes me from my slumber, groaning I roll over in the bed to hear another more familiar groan. Opening my eyes a blurry image appears before them but the most striking thing about the blurry image is the striking green eyes that whisper, "Morning my little superstar..." I blush at Karlie's words she seemed to keep coming up with new ones every day. "Stop it," I gushed whacking her on the arm, she faked pain and I felt bad until she laughed. Jumping out of bed she walked towards the bathroom, "Not fair," I yelled after her. Moments later the shower started and I managed to count to seven before following her in. Steam misted the mirror above the sink and hung in the air like a blanket. It felt perfect. Arms wrapping around my now naked body caused me to scream out, "Shush baby, just me. Who were you expecting? Santa?" I laughed out loud but then groaned as Karlie worked her fingers up to my short hair, I had followed in her footsteps since she was now growing hers out. "Shower...now." I managed to stutter out before we ended up doing it on the bathroom floor.

Emerging half an hour later with wet hair and sweet smelling bodies we smiled and silently agreed that this was the best way to say goodbye for three weeks. But now as I watch Karlie wheel her suitcase out the front door I can't help but think this is all a mistake. Picking up the phone I call Tree Paine, my new publicist. She knows all about Karlie and I and like us she wants to go public but it's a waiting game, we don't want the album to suffer because of a relationship. Our families all know but we are keeping it quiet from our friends. All they know is that we hang out because we are both in New York but we try to hang out with new people too, I hang out with Jack Antanoff and Lena Dunham when I can and Karlie hangs with Cara when she comes to New York or Lily when she flies in for a shoot from Nashville. I think Lily suspects what's going on but just doesn't say anything. Calling Tree she answers after the third ring. "Morning Taylor, Karlie get off okay?" I was speechless. "How did you?" "Seriously, you have both been moping like little puppy dogs all week and your now calling me so I figured she left today. Am I right?" Grumbling a response Tree laughed. "Well I think her management and us have come to an arrangement. Want to hear it?" "Yes!" I exclaimed suddenly excited. "Okay, well you have been asked back to Victoria's Secret again this year and we were thinking of afterparty and you just telling friends, posting to Instagram and Twitter and Tumblr for you too. But if you both want that way it's out before your birthday and you guys can spend Christmas together without any fuss, except for nosy photographers. What do you think?" I was speechless, I couldn't believe that we could be together publically by Christmas. "I say yes." I was unbelievably happy. "Good, now Karlie's management have told her but she wanted to wait until after release week to tell you but you now know so....i don't know. Don't be mad?" she asks hopefully as I laugh. "Okay Tree, I'll text her and tell her I know and that I love her. Talk to you soon Tree." I laughed hanging up the phone as I watch Meredith cuddle up on Karlie's side of the bed and I watch Olivia climb up too, looking at Meredith I wait for the cat fight to start but it doesn't, Olivia goes and sits by Mere and Mere just looks at her, Olivia plays with her tail and Mere goes to sleep. Taking a picture I send it to Karlie with the comment of, "Cuddle buddies p.s wanna come out at the V.S Show?" I send it and wait for a response. It arrives less than a minute later. "She told you?" I scoff and call her.

"Hi baby," Karlie calls from the other end, I can hear the airport noise behind her. "Hi Karlie, Tree told me but I was moping so she really had no choice." Karlie scoffs, the laughs. "Why were you moping, I left half an hour ago." I sigh and look at the clock, she's so right I'm never going to last three weeks. "I just miss you," I pout into the phone. "Aww baby I'm going to miss you so much, but you leave for L.A tonight and you're going to meet up with Abigail and have so much fun." I listen to her calming voice and realise she is right, I'm going to have fun in L.A even though I will miss her. My house will remind me of the time we have shared there together but I'll bask in it not let it get me down. "I know." I mumble. We talk until her plane is called for boarding and she had to go. "Bye Karlie. I love you and call me when you can." I heard her aww before she said, "Goodbye my love, I'll call you when I land. Love you." We hung up feeling more content than ever before. I knew this would be a large test of how strong our relationship is but I have no fears. I love her and she loves me. Sighing happily I place my phone in my jeans pocket before slipping on my favourite socks since I intend on staying in today and walk downstairs again and for the first time since I moved in I look around. Everything has a place, I had sorted where my Christmas tree was going to go this year and Karlie was excited to see how crazy I went for Christmas but I knew she loved me either way so I wasn't scared of expressing my Christmas joy like I had been in the past with different boyfriends. This year was all about new memories and hopefully our families could come here to New York and we could spend time all together, two families united.

Karlie's P.O.V

It was day three and already I could feel the tension on the shoot, first the director walked off when his first assistant was fired by the company and it disrupted the first two days of the shoot. But today when I arrived to the shoot from the beautiful hotel I was staying in, the tension had reached an all-time high, the director was yelling at everyone. I had only walked in the door when he rounded on me and asked why I was so bloody late. "I wasn't bloody late, and you are being inconsiderate I'm due to start at 10.15am and it's 9.30am!" I stated as he looked at his worksheet and then apologized. I huffed and walked past dialling Taylor and talking to her while the ladies did my make-up for the day. "Hi," I said when she picked up." I was feeling better already. "Hi Karlie, how's the day going since I talked to you...three hours ago." I laughed realising it hadn't been that long. "Good I just straightened out the director he was being a you-know-what." I rolled my eyes as I spoke and I heard her laugh. "That's great babe, well I'm just about to fly back to New York so there goes six hours out of my life." I laughed. "Just what you always wanted but I'll let you go I just wanted to say hey. Have a great time in New York. Give Mere and Olivia a hug for me." After Taylor promised to do just that and within an hour I was standing at the base of a large ladder that I was supposed to perch on in heels. 'God save me now' I said as I climbed. Once I got to the top of the ladder I noticed that it wasn't very well put together and one slip and I could fall and hurt myself. "Excellent, and looking this way Karlie. Beautiful. Stunning. Breath-taking." The director was really trying his luck now. "Lean a little this way." I looked down at my manager Zoe, who nodded and smiled at me. I gave her a tiny one back and leant forward at the same time the ladder decided to stop co-operating with me and I felt time lapse as I fell.

I can't even remember the landing but coming too in a moving vehicle with only Zoe next to me isn't a re-assuring thing. I felt Zoe look at me and then exhale a long breath. "Thank god." She leans over me and I try to smile but all that happens is a few tears leak out. "Oh shush Karlie, its fine we are going to the hospital. It's fine." I gulp and try to stay calm but all that I can think of is my princess in America, what's going to think. I couldn't do anything but look at the roof of the ambulance as it carried me to my fate the only thing that I could think of was "Please don't tell Taylor or Tree." I begged Zoe. She looked at me and I said, "It's release day tomorrow, please don't tell them." She stiffly nods her head but says, "You're making a mistake Karlie. Taylor will be here the minute she hears of this and you know it." I closed my eyes knowing she was right and I was wrong but I didn't want Taylor to worry about me. Not at all. But she is like her mom and is a huge worrier.