What I Want

Epilogue

Four Years Later...

Taylor's P.O.V

"Allie, baby we have to go..." I call upstairs as I hear a banging and crashing followed by a small pair of feet delicately tapping as she hits every step between her and the second story of the house. Soon Allie's smiling face meets mine as she proudly holds up her new school bag with an owl on it. "Look mommy, I found it."
"Good work, go and grab your lunchbox and drink bottle from the kitchen." She nods and skips down the hallway before I hear her voice talking to Meredith and Olivia. Feet with boots now sound through the house as I notice bigger feet walking across the wooden floor, turning to face Karlie who is fresh from a shoot in Canada I smile. "Hey baby..." she coo's at me as I open my arms for a hug that turns into me holding her like a koala bear. "Miss me?" she questions as I refuse to let go. "Of course I did." I state as Allie comes back and screams.
"Mama! You're back, I missed you." Karlie and I both laugh as Allie latches herself to Karlie who with the strength of a gorilla grabs Allie, school bag and all and picks her up to hug her close. I smile watching the scene unfold in front of me before Karlie begins to speak again."Where's our other two trouble makers?" She questions as she looks around."Allie? Have you seen them?" she questions. Allie shakes her head solemnly and says in a sweet voice. "No mama." Before quickly jumping out of Karlie's arms and rushing towards the kitchen yelling. "Run Meredith and Owivia, mama's coming." This dissolves Karlie and I into fits of laughter as Karlie kisses me before rushing after her as I'm left to say, "hey we're leaving in five."

It turns out to take Allie and Karlie nearly ten minutes to get organized ready to go, it amazes me how much Allie is like Karlie in her mannerisms and the way she talks and acts like a goofball all the time.Certainly keeps me on my toes now that I'm not making music anymore. Some days I still sing and jump around but things have changed for me in the past four years, starting with Allie. Karlie and I had both realised that we wanted to have a much larger family than just Allie but things didn't work out the way we planned. Karlie was meant to carry our first child but after four failed IVF treatments we discovered that an improper insertion of an IUD when Karlie first started modelling has led to infertility. Initially we were upset and did think about suing her doctor but once we discovered that she had already retired we gave up and decided that I would carry all of our children. It did take a while for it to happen especially since we were in the process of releasing a sixth album, after thinking and discussing with our families I decided to release the album but not tour and Big Machine were really understanding and still let me out of the contract I signed when I first began my career but then things fell apart again. By the end of 2016 Karlie was busy modelling almost full time except for a week every month when she would be home with Allie and I, around that time her sister Kristine got married and became pregnant and we decided that getting pregnant now would take away the excitement of her child just because we were famous so we waited and then we moved back out to L.A because we wanted our kids to be able to run around in the dirt, have friends, go to good schools and New York became too busy. L.A was where many of our friendslived including Karlie's modelling friends Gigi Jonas who married my ex-boyfriendJoe in 2017 in a private family only ceremony but they both instagramed thehell out of it. Martha Hunt who is now Martha McDonald who married her long time love Jason and it just made more sense to be out there.

"You alright there babe?" Karlie questions waving her hand in front of my face as I laugh.
"Yeah I'm good, just nervous about later." Karlie smiles and grabs my hand bringing it to her face for a kiss. "Don't worry. You'll be fine." I nod and call out to Allie to hurry up, as I finish she arrives at my feet. "Can I take Meredith mommy?" I look down at her holding Meredith, while Meredith looks less than impressed. Shaking my head her bottom lip drops. "Hey,hey none of that Allie-gator. Meredith will be here when you get home from school okay?" She looks at me with her blue eyes that would melt an ice sculpture if they had to. "Okay mommy." Sighing I stand as Karlie reappears with the car keys. "Ready?" she questions, I look at Allie and she nods as we leave the house. As I shut the door I notice Meredith slouching away and I laugh. 'That damn cat.' By the time I reach the car Karlie has Allie in her booster seat in the backseat with the newest Ed Sheeran album playing through the car. Looking at Karlie as the song changes to 'Everything Has Changed' and Allie begins to squeal. "Yes mama, yes." Glaring at Karlie she shrugs and ten minutes later we pull up to Allie's new school. I take a deep breath as Karlie places her hand on my knee. "It's okay babe. Let's walk her in, yeah?" I nod as Karlie plucks Allie out who seems to have gone shy as she walks to me and holds onto my jeans. I run my hand down to her head as she looks at me. "I don't wanna go mommy." I look at Karlie whose green eyes find mine. Crouching down to Allie's height I look her in the eye. "I know princess and mommy doesn't like that her little Allie-gator won't be at home anymore to play princesses, do laundry and bake cookies but mommy knows her princess will be having fun at school." Allie looks at me and pushes herself into my arms before whispering."What if they hate me?" My heart almost breaks as I struggle to hold back the tears. Karlie quickly bends down and takes Allie into her arms, holding her at her hip. Allie looks at Karlie with love and adoration that only comes from a fresh five year old as Karlie scolds Allie for being silly. "Everyone will love you baby, mama promises." I don't even attempt to interrupt as Allie hugs Karlie before being set down on the ground and putting on her schoolbag that I help her with. Glancing at Karlie we both grab her hands as we walk towards her new classroom where her teacher Amanda Wilson greets us. "Taylor, Karlie how are we doing today?" she questions looking at me more than Karlie because she knows I stay home with Allie but I nod and say "we're okay, right Allie-gator?"Allie looks at me and nods as Miss Wilson reaches out her hand to Allie who drops Karlie's hand and takes Miss Wilson's. I go to let Allie's go but she holds tight and looks at me. "Mommy..." she states. I look at her and crouch down again as Karlie stands behind me, "What baby?" Allie smiles and hugs me tight before kissing my cheek.
"I love you." My heart melts.
"Well I love you too. See you later." She turns with Miss Wilson and walks in as I stand up and Karlie hugs me and says. "There goes our baby Taylor." I smile and nod before we walk back to our car. "C'mon we shouldgo before we're late." I smile as nervousness creeps in.

Karlie's P.O.V

Watching Allie walk into school for her first day scares the life out of me. What if she gets hurt? What if she gets picked on? It all worries me because when she is home with Taylor she is well looked after even if she walks into a door, which happens a lot because she is a clumsy child but at school we aren't there to protect her which scares me. But right now as I drive Taylor and I to our appointment I'm just nervous. Nervous as to what will happen while we are there but excited at the same time. Finding a park in L.A is usually a nightmare but today we are able to park with no issues as we hold hands and walk down the block towards our doctors. Inside I walk to reception and check us in as Mandy tells us to take a seat wherever since we are the first appointment of the day, which calms me slightly. Pretty soon we are called. "Taylor and Karlie Swift-Kloss" I stand taking Taylor's hand as we follow Dr Avery to her room. When the door closes it hits me that the next time it opens will be when our fate is sealed and we know what life has in store for us. Taylor hops onto the bed as I take the seat next to her like last time."Okay, so last time we injected the fertilized egg and ten days later you did a pregnancy test that was positive..." we both nod as she says. "Good, good so now we will confirm?" I look at Taylor who looks nervous and glances down at her washboard stomach. "Yes please." I say as she quickly looks at me.  "Well alright then. Taylor if you could lie back for me." I watch Taylor lie down and get comfortable on the scratchy paper they have underneath you. "Good, if you want to unbutton your jeans and lift your top so we get a clear area to work with." I watch her fumble with the button as she takes a deep breath and shivers when Dr Avery places a huge dollop of ultrasound gel on her lower abdomen and lifts the ultrasound wand up and looks at us both. "Ready?" I look at Taylor and bend down to kiss her strawberryscented lips. "Ready." We both say before the gel is moved almost fully acrossTaylor's abdomen and as we both look at Dr Avery who suddenly smiles and flicks a switch as a loud booming noise fills the noiseless room. "Is that?" I question as Dr Avery smiles and nods. "That's your baby. I'd say you are almost nine weeks pregnant Taylor." I stare at the screen unable to fathom the fact that our baby is there. "Karlie..." Taylor questions pulling me from my funk as I look at her and kiss her lips. "You're amazing. I love you." Dr Avery smiles and wipes off Taylor's abdomen before stating that pictures will be outside and to book an appointment for four weeks when Taylor will be three months pregnant. We look at each other in amazement and smile as we share another kiss. Taylor is pregnant with our child and I couldn't be happier for the first time in a long time I am finally getting what I want, a family with the woman I love.

The End.

Thank-you all for reading What I Want. I hope you all enjoyed reading it as much as I loved writing it. I've met lost of amazing people on this journey and made some friends too. Hopefully you all stick around and read the sequel to this, All I Need. Find it on my page.
- Hannah :)