Since the day I broke up with Louis I want to spend my time alone in my room . He tried to call me but I didn't answer. I don't want to talk to him this time ,I want to be strong first to talk to him in person .
At work , I don't speak too much like before. They are also worried about me ,even though I said that I'm ok I saw on their faces that they didn't believe in me.
My words are the opposite of my actions.
I'll try my best to be strong this time. It's time for me to be strong and fight towards my feelings. I'm really dreary!!
If I'm pent-up this feeling I will suffer too much.
"James!"
" "
"James ?are you deaf?"
"Why?" I answered in annoyance
"Your boyfriend is waiting for you outside the building" P'net tone was serious
"Who's boyfriend!?I don't have any!!"
"Why, is Louis not your boyfriend?anyway he's waiting for you" he's facial expressions change as I say that I'm not in a relationship
"Why are you smiling?huh"
"Why, do I look more handsome when I smile?"
"Nah !! You look like stupid idiot '" I stand up to talk to the person who is waiting outside.
I walk away from p'net,
"what is wrong with him ?a while ago you couldn't paint his facial expressions then he now smiles like he won in the lottery" I murmured while walking
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"Why are you here?"I ask when I approach the person standing outside the building
"James can we talk in private? Please!! Give me one last chance to talk to you . Promise, after this i didn't bother you anymore "
I saw in his eyes that he is serious toward his word. So I nodded, I want to feel free for my feelings and move forward .
We went to a park 🏞️
As we sat down on the bench he looked at me in a serious way.
"James I'm sorry!! Yes , I really do!!"
I answered nothing and just listened to his words.
" I know that you hate me this time but please can you forgive me ? I don't ask you to forgive me this time but please maybe in the future. I'm here to apologize in person cuz you didn't even pick up my calls and read my messages. "
" James since the day we met again and the day we are together before, nothing changed about my feelings for you. But I'm just also a human that commits sin,but that is not a valid reason to do the bad thing too. I love you really that much but
Your right,as a father of that child I must be the first person that will support and protect them. I understand your anger but it doesn't mean that I didn't love you . I will accept it if you give me punishment."he said while his eyes was now reddish
"Louis, when you say that you want to take her to abort your own child, I was very disappointed to you. Since, that baby doesn't have any sin he/she was innocent, my conscience swallowed all over me . You want to do that because of me , that's very unfair.You want to give up your own child because of me ,That's not the right thing to do Louis.One sin cannot be compensated for by another sin." I said it clearly
" Im sorry . "He said
" Ok!! I honestly hurt but what should I do ? Nothing!! Now I will move forward. And Louis since you said that you will take care you them(his child and the mother of the child) I will forgive you na !. Let's start our new beginning and feel free and live a new life . " I said
He smiled at me then ask a permission to hug me . We hugged each other and went to each other's business.
It was like a thorn had been pulled out of my heart 💟
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FanfictionA story of two persons who have been screen partner for almost 4 years . James hides his feelings toward his beloved brother Net (he is afraid of what if net knew about his feelings for him) . But James didn't know about his brother dating a girl f...
