Swan's Love-TaeGyu ☘︎

40- Swan's Love

Hueningkai sat on the couch with hands around his legs and his face buried between the gap. His deep breathes could be heard every now and then, and sometimes his sniffles.

"Is he alright? He has been sitting like that for a while, I'm scared for him..." Yeonjun whispered to Soobin, the two were standing next to their bedroom door while looking at Hueningkai.

"He is still not adjusted to the fact that Gyu... you know. Maybe we should give him some space"

It had been three days since the tragic incident, and they decided that it was best to give space to Taehyun and also bring Hueningkai with them to their apartment. But the latter hadn't spoken a word and all he did was stare off into space or just isolate himself.

Hueningkai was never the one to cry in their small friend group, he was rather the person who was always happy and had a strong aura of good luck, but it seems like the latest events had ripped him apart for none of them saw him smiling or cracking a joke.

Maybe, after all, he still can't accept the fact that his other part is all gone.

"We need to talk to him"

Yeonjun let out a soft breath and held Soobin's hand, guiding him to where Hueningkai was sitting.

Yeonjun sat on Hueningkai's left side and Soobin on the right side, Yeonjun then held the latter's hand and caressed it softly, reminding him of their presence.

"Hyung, I'm oka-"

"You are not and you know it, baby. The least we can do right now is be with each other, isn't that right?" Yeonjun said and carefully pulled Hueningkai's head up and rested on his own shoulder.

"Gyu hyung, his absence... it's like a bullet was shot in my heart, except I didn't get hurt, he did and now he isn't here. I regret everything, I regret accusing him on hurting Taehyun, I regret getting in between their relationship, I regret just not knowing how he felt, I was too caught up with Taehyun that I forgot about him"

Soobin's eyes glistened with worry and he inhaled a deep breath. Hueningkai had never talked about his feelings like this, he had never confessed to getting in between Taehyun and Beomgyu, but who was Soobin to talk when he wasn't even in their friend group back then when the flower of love bloomed in the hearts of the two young lovers?

"I know it must feel like that, but it's not your fault. Gyu knew that you weren't being honest, he knew that you were just protective of Taehyun. For all the time that I have known him and you, I've never seen him say or even think about something like that."

Soobin had always had that leader-like aura in their group even though he never saw that himself. Something about him assuring all of them and just being there was so comforting, it must be the reason why Hueningkai stopped sobbing and listened, even Yeonjun turned his attention to Soobin.

"We are all hurt, and I'm sure it feels like it was all our fault. We could have gone there earlier, we could have been there for him, we could have, we could have done a lot of things, but nothing went the way we wanted it. What I'm trying to say is that things never go the way we want them to, and in the end we just tend to blame someone, even if it's someone who had nothing to do with it. Huening, you didn't cause any of this, you can be guilty and hate yourself all you want but you didn't kill him, you didn't suck his soul out of his body, you are not a bad person"

By the end of Soobin's words, everyone silenced and the only thing that could be heard was the sound of the door creaking.

Yeonjun and Soobin looked at Hueningkai and waited for his response, there must be something he had to say, anything.