END ROADS

CHAPTER 82: where the story ends.

"Your boy is growing quickly, look at him. He has your eyes" I said poking the chubby cheeks of the cute child sleeping in the baby cot. Grey smiled and kissed my head.
"But he has your cute little nose" he said patting my head.
"Grey... I am very happy. What should we name him?"
"Becky....
"No, that is my name and he is a boy...
"Becky... Becky...

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I woke up from the hopeless dream, Regina was sitting at the edge of bed shaking me awake.
You need to eat something, the kid needs to grow well"
"I don't have the appetite to eat anything" I said standing up and going to the bathroom .
A week has passed since the massive burial that was carried out. Keith, Grey, Adelyn, Curl and Jason were among the many soldiers that we buried. The base where David did his crazy works was blown into ashes. The gorge was sealed up by Antonio and Flora. The rock David turned into became a reminder of the miserable days we had to go through.
Grey's father was greatly aggrieved by the news of the loss if his son. Not to mention Dermot's mother who took him as a son. Hazel was happy to reconcile with his brother and was recovering well.
As for Alan, he was doing well too and Abi did let him go out of his sight at all.
Elia was heavy with child, Arthur took over the Flames coven. I still kept the letter hidden so no one knew of Steele's bad conduct. The entire coven was tied down to me as soon as The war ended I was not even awake when it happened. I woke up and found a nation of emotions blanketing me.
The whole coven was at peace, I was the only one who was not healed yet. My man was dead!
"Madam? Are you not coming out?"
"I will be out soon" I said hurrying up washing my hands and left the bathroom.
"What is it this time round?"
"The council...
"I'm not in the mood, let them do whatever they want to do I don't care."
"But you are the master!"
"I didn't consent" I said picking a piece of the sliced apples and ate them.
"We can't postpone it again, they just need your word"
I sighed "let's go"
"Your clothes...
"This buggy gown is fine, I don't want anything squashing me. Let's go "
We went into the council room, I sat down... Slouched on the seat listening to them talking. My mind was not around, I missed my man badly . I felt like crying.
"So that is the plan, what do you think Becky?"
"What plan?"
Steele sighed tiredly "we are talking about the Hawthorne project!"
"Is that Mr MM?"
"Yes, his project of letting vampires live with humans. The project will be stable by the end of next year. We need to look through the plan and see if it's a good one. please take a look"
"No need, you guys are civilized people you can handle that, if you need my signature find me. I support the project. We won't have to hide around and be hunted by a maniac like David. It is a nice one"
"Alright, can  I go now? I want to sleep, at least I can see my man in my dreams"
"Sure"
I left the room and went to my room. I had moved into Grey's room, at least in there his scent lingered. It felt better, as if he was there although he was not there.
I sniffed his clothes, cuddled his blanket in bed just to feel his presence. But it felt very empty, I ended crying and regretting being born to such a father. Who took my man away from me. I regretted saving Alan instead of him, I regretted it all.
"Do you want to go outside and get some air?" Someone asked from the door. I turned around, Ethan and Hazel were standing there together.
"No thanks, I am fine"
"Why don't we visit, Grey's cave and see his creations?"
"You don't have to try so hard, I am not leaving" I answered.
"We want you to be okay"
"If only he comes back, then I will be fine. But for now. I will sit here and lose myself in his scent. It is less lonely" I sat on the bed clutching onto his shirt.
Hazel and Ethan walked in and sat on the sofa.
Then a movie will be fine, right?"
"Do as you wish"
They switched on the TV and selected a random movie
"This movie is so beautiful, are you sure you don't want to join us?"
"No thanks, I will be outside"
"Becky...
I stopped at the door not even turning to look at Ethan.
"We want you to be okay, no one is happy to see you like that. Your mom does not even know what to say to you let alone Steele. The man is speechless, he misjudged you and now the guilt is on his shoulder. Please try to be okay "
"Ethan " I looked at the big guy "I wish I can be okay too. But, that was my soulmate. I ... I don't wish to live any lon without him. I have tried Ethan, but he's everywhere. In my mind, in me, in the air I breathe, in my dreams... He's everywhere. I don't know what to do. I just want my man back. Just that "
I was a crying mess, I sat down and the two rushed over to embrace me. I cried bitterly just like the past seven days. I have been crying and crying and I was not able to stop it no matter what I did.
I just wanted my man back, I wanted to touch him again, to kiss him, to tease him. I wish I had kissed him for the last time at least. I wish I had hugged him for the last time, I wanted him so bad and the need was driving me nuts.