END ROADS

CHAPTER 64: MY REFLECTION IS SAD

My eyes hurt, my hands were sore and the headache was at the edge of killing me. I was in the dark, I felt the sound of shackles and chains. Was I in a cell?
Was that a question? Oh I was, I was locked up.
The lights were turned on, at the door was Jayden and Ethan. I was on the bed my hand and leg chained onto the bed. I tried to pull but Jayden stopped me.
"What is all this? Why am I chained?"
"Orders from the elders" Jayden replied simply
"Why?"
"You are out of control, you almost killed us yesterday. The plane could have crushed we could have died in there"
"What?"
"You were yelling that you wanted to kill 'him' , because he tortured you and hurt you. I thought you forgave him and it was all in the past?" Jayden sighed "he is the master of this coven, we protect him with our lives and it seems like you are becoming a threat. We have to tie you up like this to keep him safe. Steele wanted you in the dungeon but I chose to keep you here instead." He paused sighed again standing straight.
"Am disappointed in you, but I hope you will think about this"
"I wasn't...
"Relax, you don't have to explain, I would have wanted to kill the person who tampered with my life as well it's fine. But in this case, I will protect Grey"
I sighed , he wouldn't listen. I lay back turned my face away from him and closes my eyes.
"Becky...
"I know, protect your master,I will stay here quietly " I snapped at Ethan without even looking at him. I lay quietly, my heart felt low as if it would stop beating at any time. I couldn't imagine it, my own father wanted me dead. How absurd!
The doors are always open for anybody, whoever wanted to walk in and fall into the embrace was free to do so. And whoever denied the embrace was free to do so as well. But choosing the door to walk through was the big problem. Which was the correct door to walk through?
I chose my father's, I loved him but he resented me, he didn't want to see me. He was willing to kill me.
He wasn't human, I am sure now he wasn't, but I was human back then. Was I?
If he was a vampire, I would have known but he had a single fang, his eyes were orange -red in colour. What type of creature is that?
The lady in red hoodie, who was she?
Was she the source of my power? She wiped my memories, why the hell would she do that? It was sad anyway I would have been really sad if I had the memories with me, and dad would have definitely killed me if I remembered what he did. I would have been dead for better or for worse.
A knock at the door came again, two figures walked in. I could tell who they were without even looking. Abigail and Alan. They sat on the sofa silently for a minute or so before Alan spoke.
"You almost killed my mate"
I sat upright in am instant.
"What?!"
Alan lifted Abi's blouse, deep red scars mapped her skin.
"Why are they not healing?" I asked worriedly
"I can't tell, maybe because you are different"
Silence befell the room for one long minute. I was definitely awful, maybe that was the reason why dad wanted to kill me in the first place.
"Probably, am so awful"
"Don't say that, I know you can't hurt me even if you wanted me to. You are my best friend, you cannot do that"
"Why did you hug me?" I lowered my eyes too ashamed to look at her face.
"Because I knew you wouldn't kill me, you would recognise me in one way or the other and finally calm down"
"Don't do that again, if I go berserk again. Throw me out, don't risk your life or anyone's life for me. Am not worth it" I was not, or was I!? At least I did not think so.
"You don't speak so ill of my best friend" she warned walking over, she sat on the bed taking my hands "you are my best friend, the friend I have had after so long. I will risk my life for you, you are not alone am here for you!"
"Are you not scared?"
I watched her reaction, she shrugged and smiled warmly.
"I have seen the worst of you or maybe not, but at least I have an idea . I will not be afraid of you"
"What if I hurt you?"
"I will know you tried not to hurt me but you couldn't"
I sighed pulling her into my arms.
"Why are you so stupid?" I hissed at her tears stinging at the back of my eyes.
"I can't help it" she mumbled holding me tightly.
I placed my hand on her back summoning my power. My eyes glowed blue as the power danced at the tip of my fingers. I healed her back and retracted my hand.
We disengaged from the embrace offering each other a warm smile.
"Tell me what happened"
I smirked moving away from her.
"I wanted to kill your master, Jayden didn't tell you so?"
"I would only believe what comes from you"  she gave me that serious gaze that annoyed me. Why was she this good to me?
"What happened is not important, what everyone saw and heard is what matters"
"What made you behave so?"
"Rage! Anger? Disappointment? Hatred? Resentment? One of them I can't tell which was it" i answered indifferently.
"What provoked you?"
"A memory" my voice darkened "a memory that opened my eyes and made me want to kill someone more than a thousand times but it still wouldn't satisfy me. I would do it again and again until I die while killing him"
"That is so much hatred" Alan pointed out
I shifted my gaze to him and snickered.
"I hate him with everything within me, I really do" I agreed.
"Who is this man?"
"The beast that sired me. That wrecked animal, wanted to kill me when I was eight. He choked air out of me and was almost snapping my neck off. He was so mad" I chuckled suppressing a laugh of rage and anger squeezing my throat badly.
"He looked at me with so much resentment, anger and disgust. He was disgusted with me. I can't believe it, that fuckin' man wanted to kill me, he resented me" I closed my eyes pinching my brows.
"If I knew where he was, I would kill him and scatter his bones to the ends of the world. I would scatter his stinking body everywhere!" I trembled and shook violently breaking the chains and shackles into pieces.
"You... You...
"I can break anything, I didn't want to kill anyone so I pretended to be docile and lay here. How else can I prove that my anger is directed to someone else?"
"But this room, no one can use any ability here!"
"Am not a vampire, that one am certain!"
"Wht did you do? Why did he want to kill you?"
"I witnesses something horrible, he left the dinner table suddenly that night. Mom went to the kitchen thinking she was the problem, I followed him outside only to witness the man I knew as my father detaching a vampire's head from its body. I was shocked, as white as ghost. I thought he would say something like....you shouldn't see something like this am sorry you had to see this.... But you know what he did? He choked me , he wanted to kill me...! My father?!"
Tears spilled from my eyes, my fist balled my eyes beet red. I wanted to crush something into powder and it would be more satisfying if it was that man! David!
"How did you survive?"
"A woman came, I don't know from where. But there was a force that threw us apart then she touched my back and I forgot everything. She vanished and I rushed to my father as if nothing had happened. How pathetic!"
"Who was she? Did you see her face? What did you say?"
"Something like....."Everyone finally dies, but not when you are eight years. That is a little bit unfair don't you think so little one....forget today, I save you today but it comes with a price. I won't tell you what the price is, you will know. But for now just forget
"She was gone the next minute"
"Did your father see her?"
"I don't think so, otherwise she would have died that very minute"
Abi sighed and scratched her head .
"If we say she is the source of your power, the puzzle would not be complete. Your powers became active when you woke up from a comma, right?"
"Yeah"
"When you were in the human world you didn't have them, correct?"
"Yes"
"I can't see it, what about your dad?"
"The girl Ryan said he is a vampire, but I didn't buy it. Why would he be a vampire hunter when he is one? And in my memory, he had a single fang on his left jaw. His eyes were orange -red colour. What kind of creature is that?"
"If it were blue I would say you belong to the same category as him. But his is even more weird" Alan suggested.
We were silent for a long time then Abi smiled brilliantly.
"If he is your enemy too it means you shouldn't die. You are not a vampire hunter, an enemy of an enemy is a friend " she spoke brilliantly her eyes sparkling with excitement.
I chuckled knocking her forehead.
"Do you think the council will believe that? Especially Steele?"
"You got a point, what if you run away?"
"C'mon Abi your suggestions are becoming worse as time goes by. Where would I run to? Why would I run? The guilty ones run, am not guilty or a coward. Besides I can handle anyone who wants to hurt me, am certainly not that little teenager who was always locked in the basement after getting a dog beating " i said walking around.
"Are you not bored?"
"I am, but I am in shackles and chains " I smirked "so I wouldn't murder the vampire prince I adore the most " I laughed sarcastically "the irony in this situation is very laughable"
"I wouldn't agree less this is very laughable " she said under her breathe.
"You better leave, you will be accused of joining hands with a traitor who wants to kill your master " I warned sarcastically.
"Don't be sarcastic with us, you would never do that "
"How do you know? We have not known each other for long " i challenged
"Oh, I know. But you saved us, Dom and the rest of us. To sum it all up, I saw how you were concerned about Grey, concerned even about his mate when you are in love with him yourself. Who else could have such a pure heart if not you? If it were someone else I am sure she would have killed the mate to get the man for herself, but you didn't do that, you wanted to protect her too. I heard you sacrificed your shoulder for Arianna, your back for Grey and you went berserk when the Gala attacked you in the south of the Flakes coven. Would you still be a traitor after doing all that?"
I was dumbfounded, I looked at Alan who was giving me a challenging gaze. He spoke as if he was so sure that I am a good person. Was he being naive or he was being stupid on purpose?
"What a foolish conclusion to make!"
"If I become stupid for trusting you, then let me be the fool!"
"Get out, your words are making me sick. Am in no mood of snapping necks right now. So just leave" I threatened looking away from them.
"You can't snap necks not because you are not in the mood, but it is not in you to do so. We are leaving though, just don't do anything stupid."
"Is the Crowns coven to the North?"
"Yes, why?"
"I just wanted to know where the prince is, I have to make a kill soon"
"As if you can bear the sight of anyone laying hands on him" Abigail fueled the flames and walked out closing the door after them.
Was I a nice person? Was I a foolish person? What was I? A pathetic human, right? Was I even human? Heh, maybe Grey was right when he said I was not human back then. I was so mad at him, we got mad at each other and I was at the verge of exploding! But he was right I was not human, what was I?
I sat back on the bed looking at the pieces of metals on the floor. The shackles and chains that were meant to hold me down could not do it. Who would hold me down if I didn't submit to it? No one right?
Grey?
Probably, he has done so more than once, he did so several times and I wouldn't fight back. It wouldn't work, was it because I allowed him to or it was to be so?
Now that I thought of him, I felt hollow inside. I yearned for his warmth and presence. Has it been a day? No! Two days and I felt like he had gone for ages. I ached to be in his arms, I ached to see his charming face. It may be cold to others, but to me, he was such a marvellous person.
I pulled the pillow into my arms hugging it tightly. Why was I like this? I felt so empty right now, it felt so lonely. There was nothing to keep my soul burning, I was sad and I felt dejected.
I walked to the bathrooms and filled the tab with soap and water before soaking in it. I washed my hair and scrubbed my body. What was I gonna do? Sit down and wait, be locked in a room like this just the way my father locked me in the basement. What difference did it make. Born a prisoner? Or born to suffer, which one was it?
If he hears that I am locked up and I wa always locked before he would be happy right? Very happy that it made no difference, being under his authority or the vampires mercies. Right?!
Then my life will keep being worthless , very worthless no difference from anyone who is imprisoned or enslaved somewhere.
Oh, Becky... Where are your mercies?
Do you have any left for you? Or you were born with none!
I stepped out of the tab dried my hair and dried it. I put on a pair of denim trousers a white shirt and shoes. I pulled on a denim jacket and sat before the mirror combing my brown thick hair. My reflection was sad! Very sad than I have ever seen myself be. I used a spell to blur the mirror, seeing myself like that was not helping.
I pulled on a woollen jacket and walked ove to the night stand. The ring with the green gem was there, magnificent with it's intricate patterns.
Time to put the long learnt spells and skills into use. I put on the ring on my middle finger, smiling in satisfaction.
Here I come!