Excerpts I'll Never Tell

Dream Journal wandering into the sun

Each date is the night of going into the following morning documenting my dreams. Each meaning will be composed of my own thoughts as well as cross-referencing.

4/8
Driving a truck and trying to avoid driving over glass? When I finally was parked, went into this massive white house and a hurricane/solar eclipse happened. Other people were there but they were strangers. I was looking for someone, I'm not sure who, but couldn't find them. I started panicking.

Meaning: Broken glass typically means danger in waking life as well as transformation and suppressed emotion. Typically a solar eclipse and the way my dream unraveled typically means testing my idea of external powers. Hurricane indicates vulnerability. Driving a truck also may indicate navigating life, travel, or overload.

4/9
Another truck but this one a semi and trying to fix the parking on it? It was in a backyard inside of a shed? (I'm not sure haha) but I remember for some reason being afraid it would blow up?

Meaning: A shed in a dream could be a push to get out of your comfort zone, since in my dream I was afraid it would "blow up" could translate to being afraid in waking life. Again translation to the truck is that needing to move forward, travel, knowing what I want, etc.

4/10
I don't remember too much but I remember someone was being very aggressive towards me. I'm not sure who, but they were screaming in my face and grabbing my arms/shoulders. I remember feeling scared and grinding my teeth. My heart was racing. Woke up, and went back to sleep. No dream after.

Meaning: The screaming in the dream can indicate my suppressed emotion not being let out. Not feeling heard. Because arms are a symbolism of control it could also be I'm feeling like someone else is controlling my life and I have no say. I'm complacent, hence why my other dreams are symbolisms of suppressed emotions, escape and travel.

4/11-4/12
no dreams that I remember. Mainly nightmares.

4/13
Third person perspective watching someone an African American female swimming with poisonous snakes, trying to save their lover a curly headed blonde boy. I appeared in first person trying to help the girl, knowing a door is ahead but not knowing if it's safe. Door filled with snakes, then reptiles overall. Other girl had a gift of attracting reptiles. Attending meetings in first person getting gold coins and money for continuing "the work". Knowing the game without ever have played it. Seeing B trying to reach out but it's not going through. "Sunshine waters?" Replies flooding in on what to do on my end from strangers. Not sure. I was wearing a short white sun dress and my hair wasn't dark anymore. I was anxious. I kept seeing bronze and brass in shades. Very all over type of dream. Going to go back to sleep, only just got five hours.

Meaning: Lakes symbolize a journey into the subconscious mind. According to multiple references could be an invitation to explore innermost thoughts and feelings. Snakes again a sign of transformation and rebirth. Duality and turmoil. Seeing as they're in water can be lurking danger, or something hidden. Not sure what it means since I saw it for someone else. I'm thinking as my previous dreams were about moving forward, and change, the snakes represent fear since I was afraid of the snakes at said door. Being afraid of change, or fear of rejection/failure. Not being able to save someone that was her love could indicate hopelessness in a position. Fear is loss. Fear of being out of touch. Loss of identity. Weary of "the work" part, prosperity if continuing the work? Knowing the game yet never have played? Not sure. Sunshine water in Celtic religion indicates Healing. Life. Strength. White dress is new start, desire for simplicity, clean slate. Hair changing reminds me of game board of the gods for some reason. Seeing shades of bronze and brass almost reminds me of a rank. I'm not sure though. Cross referencing has many interpretations. Judgement. Needing to give more care. Strength. Healing. Taking on too much that cannot be upheld.