Borrowed time; Mattheo Riddle

Chapter 41

Mattheos pov

I held her closer while she cried. I knew she was hiding something but I never imagined it being this. She is dying. The only girl I have ever loved is fucking dying, just my luck. 

But there was still some things eating at my brain. I had read her parents mission file and it said her parents died in the cave along with the others from the mission, and that was clearly wrong. The only survivor was Snape because he was never at the excavation site, right? 

"Love, look at me" I grabbed her face, wiping her tears away with my thumbs. "What happened with the dagger?" 

A layer of confusion covered her wet face. "I don't know" her voice was weak from the crying. 

"I knew about the dagger. My father keeps records of all his missions and when you first came here I recognized you last name. I read the file, it says your parents died in the cave and the dagger was never found" I explained. 

More tears feel from her eyes as she tried to blink them away. Her eyes drifting away from mine  as if she couldn't look at me while she spoke. "Severus said the dagger was evil, or maybe it just made people evil, I don't know. But he insisted that if handed over to the dark lord it would be the end of the world. The dagger would corrupt him and with the power he has he feared he would be unstoppable. He faked my parents death, placing their bodies in the cave.." she bit back the tears as hard as she could. I hate seeing her like this but I really need to know, for her own sake. "He killed the others.... at the camp. He killed them all and placed them in the cave... and.. and then he blew up the roof. Making it look like they all died in a cave in" her big green eyes looking back up to mine. "I never got to burry them Mattheo, they lay crushed under rooks for entirety. I never asked what he did with the dagger after that, I never cared" 

"I'm so sorry love" I pulled her in to my arms again and she clung to my body. The body of the son whose father ruined her life. The son she loves. I don't think I'll ever understand how but she does, and I her. Which means I will do whatever it takes to keep her here with me forever, she's not fucking dying until she's to old to function, and even then I'll take care of her until her last breath. The day she dies is the day I die, and I'm not fucking ready to die just yet, not when I just found my reason to live. 

Bellas pov

Mattheo held me close as I clung to him feeling like I was never close enough. We had sat like this for a while, embracing the silence and coming to terms with everything. The others had came knocking on my door hearing about me being out of the hospital wing but Mattheo sent them away saying I was still sleeping. I diden't feel like talking to people right know and I think Mattheo feelt the same way. They did however insist on coming by later with dinner saying they weren't eating without me. 

We went and took a shower together washing away the tears and relaxing our bodies. As we got dressed afterwards Mattheo stopped, a wondering look on his face as he scanned my mostly naked body. I knew immediately what he was looking for, the scar. You don't get stabbed in the stomach and cursed to death without it leaving behind a scar. 

"Concealment charm, the same you use on your scars" I explained. Even though I had already seen them he still hides them. I guess it a habit, I mean I covered mine up even when I lived alone at Snape's, for no other reason then that I didn't like looking at it. 

He walked around the bed grabbing his wand and removing the charm. The deep X scar becoming visible on his chest and back as he moved back around the bed towards me, never letting his eyes leave mine. Stopping before me he hold out the wand and I hesitantly grab it. I'm only in a bra leaving my torso exposed as my sweatpants hang low on my hips. I close my eyes as I point the wand towards me but before I  can undo the charm he places his hand on mine, "Look at me Bella". So I do. He's closer now, his brown eyes soft and reassuring as he lets go of my hand. I keep my eyes set on his as I remove the charm, his eyes wandering down my body until they land on the scar. His face doesn't change as his eyes drift over it and back up to mine. "Still equally as fucking beautiful" he said coming in even closer and kissing me. 

With a smile on my face I part from him. God this man know just what to say every damn time. 

I turn around facing my closet mirror. The black vines cover my entire stomach by now, starting to creep up my chest and around to my back. "It was just the scar in the beginning" I explain. "With time the veins started appearing. Thats when Severus started giving me potions, they're suppose to slow the curse down. But as time goes on the curse seems to grow stronger and the veins spread. He tries to find new potions all the time, determined to slow it down as much as possible but we both now it will end the same whether it's today, tomorrow or in 5 years. I'm dying, and as much as it sucks I have come to terms with it" I said dragging my fingers along the veins. 

"Well I haven't, and you don't have to either because you're not dying" my gaze snapped up as he spoke. The determination in his voice was prominent and his face was set in stone as he walked up behind me, pressing his front to my back. "I'm not letting you go quite yet darling. So stay with me alright, keep fighting, if not for yourself then for me" the ice in his eyes melting as he met mine in the mirror. He want's me to fight something I know I'll lose, but how do you deny the man you love hope. How do you tell him Severus already tried everything between heaven and earth. How do you break his heart moments after you got it. I can't, so I lie "I will".