Borrowed time; Mattheo Riddle

Chapter 52

Mattheos pov

It felt like forever until the knock on the door came, all of us straightened up as Bella entered. "I just wanted to say that I love you all, and I know the other girls do to. You gave me a family when mine was lost and I'm forever grateful for all of you, you being death eaters doesn't change that." 

Everybody seemed to relax at her words except Theo and Draco. Bella looked at Draco giving him a little smile, "She loves you, she's hurt but she understands that you all did it to protect her. She waiting in my dorm for you". Draco bounced up "Thanks" he said kissing the top of her head before heading out the door. 

She turned to Theo who seemed to hold his breath based on the blue color of his face. "Breathe Theo" Bellas said looking worried. He did as told not even seeming to notice he had held his breath. "Daphne is scared" She said. 

"Of me?" Theo asked in almost a whisper. 

"No, of losing you". Theo seemed both relived and troubled by her answer, "She's waiting in her dorm for you". 

Theo got up stopping in front of Bella, as she gave him a reassuring squeeze of his hands before kissing his cheek and opening the door for him. 

"Mattheo" she stood at the door. Her piercing greens eyes holding mine, "I'll be waiting in you dorm when you're ready" he walked away and I followed suit as she entered my dorm and took a seat on my bed. 

I closed the door and put a silencing charm on it wanting our conversation private. "You seem calm" I stated wondering if she would snap at me or if she actually was this calm.  

"I guess I am" she said looking up at me trough her lashes. "Why didn't you tell me?" 

I took a seat next to her on the bed contemplating on how to best say this, but before I could she spoke up again. "I guess after sharing my secret I just though maybe you would trust me enough to tell me if you had any" 

"I do, ofcourse I trust you, love. It's not that.." I moved her so that I could look in her eyes, "I was scared you'd reject me ones you found out or that my father figuring out you knew... and I guess mostly that you would think I used you"

Her brows furrowed, "Why would I think you used me?". I saw fear in her eyes as she waited for me to respond. 

"My father is still looking for the dagger..." she looked away as tears began forming in her eyes, "He tasked me with keeping an eye on you to figure out if you knew anything" she stood up walking away from me to look out the window.

"What have you told him?" she asked, her voice filled with hurt and the tears treating to spill over any second. 

"Nothing"

She scoffed seeming to not believe me. I walked over to her turning her to me and forcing her to look in my eyes. "I haven't told him a thing Bella. I love you and I will protect you until the day I fucking die. He tasked me with keeping an eye on you and it was the best thing he has ever done because I got to fall in love with the most amazing girl".

"What will he do if he find out we're dating?" she asked her sadness turning to worry. 

"He already knows". Her eyes shot up at me as she looked confused. "He dosen't care who I date and what I do, besides he thinks that me dating you is just to get more information out of you about that dagger. Which I'm not, because I don't care about that stupid thing, only about you". 

She didn't look convinced as she chewed her bottom lip, "This is a lot to process, could you like take a walk or a shower so I can have some time to think?" she asked looking at me with a hint of desperation. 

"Yeah of course, I need to shower anyways so" I backed away towards the bathroom as she turned to look out the window again. My heart was beating out of my chest, if she decided to leave me I don't think I would survive.

Bellas pov

After staring out the window for a bit I finally took a seat on the bed again. Mattheo was taking his time in the shower which was appreciated. My mind was spinning a million miles an hour. 

The door opened and Mattheo stepped back in the room, a towel wrapped around his waist and his hair wet. His gaze stuck on me for a while before he went over to the closet to get dressed. 

"I only have one more question, in the beginning did you spend time with me because your father told you or because you wanted to?" He walked out the closet while pulling his shirt. Stopping before me he tilted my head up to look at him. "My father never asked me to spend time with you, only to keep an eye out. Every moment I spent with you was because I wanted to, even when my mind told me I didn't something inside me always pulled me to you"

I backed up on the bed leaning against the head frame instead and patted the space beside me, he understod as he climbed on the bed and settled down next to me. I cuddled in to his chest as he wrapped his arms around me. "I love you". His embrace tightened as I uttered the words and a look of relief came upon his face, "I love you more baby". 

We laid like that for a while before Mattheo shifted, "I actually have one more thing to tell you.. I don't want there to be any more secrets between us" 

Fear slowly crept back up in my body as I moved away slightly to be able to look at him.

"Me and Snape have been meeting regularly, we working on a cure" he gave me a tight lipped smile knowing my thoughts on this. I left his embrace to sit up, "No, please don't. Is a waste of time, I have accepted my fate Mattheo. I know it's hard but is better you accept it than run around with false hope, please babe"

"I have accepted it, there is a possibly we die and I know it but I won't just sit around and wait for it to happen" My brows furrowed at his words. "What do you mean we?" 

"I not letting you leave this earth without me, love. If you go I go" He spoke so calmly as if dying never bothered him. 

"You can't just kill yourself because I die? That crazy. No, I'm not letting you do that" 

"You can't stop me" he pulled me closer holding my face with both hands, "I love you Bella Lenox and I will follow you to the end of this fucking earth, there is nothing you can do that will change that, got it?" 

My emotions were all over the place, my heart was melting from his love but my mind was screaming over his decision. I opened my mouth to speak but no words came out. 

"But in the end, it dosen't matter baby. Because me and Snape are close, we almost got it. So you just need to hold on a bit longer alright?" I just nodded as it seemed to be the only thing I could do right now.

We cuddled back in to bed and Mattheo slowly seemed to drift off to sleep, but I stayed awake. My mind hurting from everything that it had to process today. Could it really be true? Were they close to a cure? A small silver of hope began forming in my mind and I hated it. Because I knew what it would eventually bring, disappointment.